Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
The car rolled through the streets which had been the scene of
Mendel's happy rambles, but being carried through them in such
magnificence made him feel helpless, a victim to something stronger
than his own will and that he had always detested. He was being taken
away from his mother and from Mitchell, and he knew whither motor-cars
were driven. All roads ended in Sir Julius, who could sit and look at
pictures without a word. Everything went spinning past him. This was
going too fast, too fast, and he would be exhausted before he had
really known his purpose. Maurice Birnbaum's exciting, patronizing
tones, chattering on exasperatingly, infuriated him, until he felt
like stabbing him in his already dropping stomach. What could a fat
man like that have to do with art? How could so fat a man drive down
to the wretched poverty in Whitechapel and not feel ashamed?
But in spite of himself and his confused emotions Mendel enjoyed the
drive, which showed him more of London than the narrowed area he
frequented: more to conquer, more to know; shops, strange ugly
buildings, polite, mincing people, women like dolls, men like
marionettes, wide streets and plane-trees, the gardens and squares of
the polite Southwest. Often there were Georgian houses like that in
which his family lived, but so neat and trim and newly painted that
they looked like doll's-houses, proper places for the dolls and the
marionettes. . . . And it was exhilarating to be in the heart of the
roaring traffic, bearing down upon scarlet buses, and swift darting
taxi-cabs and motor-cars as rich as Maurice Birnbaum's. Out of the
traffic they turned suddenly into a quiet street of dead houses and
vast gloomy piles of flats. Outside a house more gloomy than the rest
they stopped. Maurice got out fussily, told Mendel to be careful how
he lifted his parcel out, fussed his way into the house through a
dark, luxuriously furnished hall, and into a vast studio where there
was a group of fashionably dressed women taking tea with Sir William
and exclaiming about the beauties of a portrait that stood on the
easel.
Maurice stood awkwardly outside the circle and muttered apologies,
while Mendel felt utterly and crushingly foreign to the atmosphere of
the place. He knew how these people would regard him. They would stare
at him with a cold interest not unmingled with horror, and he would be
conscious of bearing the marks of the place he came from, of smelling
of the gutter. Against that separation even art was powerless. And
what had his work to do with this huge, hard, brilliant portrait on
the easel? If they admired that they would never look at his dark
little pictures.
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