At night my sleep was broken and constantly haunted by all sorts of
weird dreams and illusions. If there is anything more boresome than the
act of listening to a detailed account of somebody else’s operation, it
is to lend an ear to some fantastic dream; but seeing that the ancient
writers used to lay great stress on these somnific aberrations I will
risk telling of a curious one that still haunts my memory. I dreamed
that someone had brought me a number of small sleep storage tanks,
resembling oxygen tanks, and told me that while I was getting my best
sleep in the early part of the night I should sleep them all full, then
later when the opiate wore off I would have a reserve supply to draw
upon. I took the tanks one by one, slept them full and after capping
them securely I laid them down carefully in a row. Later when I became
semi-wakeful and restless I took up one of the tanks to extract some
sleep from it; but to my amazement the cap had been removed and it was
empty. I examined the others and found the sleep had all been drawn
off. For a moment I wondered who had tampered with my tanks; but the
villain was not far to seek, for lying serenely there beside the last
tank was a husky looking kidney, sound asleep!
FLIRTING WITH THE SHADOWS
Reluctant as I am to dwell upon the sad farewells incidental to the
departure of souls from this sphere, I feel that the history of this
episode would be incomplete without some account of the circumstances
and personal sensations attending the crisis. My strength having been
seriously impaired by the first operation and the resultant attack of
poisoning, after the second operation I sank lower and lower, until
the physicians practically abandoned all hope. And though I was kept
in ignorance of their diagnostic conclusions I sensed the gravity
of the situation both from my own feelings and from the mysterious
actions of those about me; and every time I closed my eyes it was with
a feeling of final submission to what seemed the inevitable. Death,
which in the distance I had always pictured with unmitigated horror,
seemed now to have lost much of its terror; and though its proximity
gave me a ghastly feeling, in a way it appeared more like a messenger
of relief than a harbinger of ill. Sometimes in my desultory sleep
its phantom-like skeleton form seemed to move stealthily about the
room, its sunken eyes steadily fixed upon me; and once I imagined it
reposing beside me in the bed. The sensation was so shockingly uncanny
that I involuntarily put out my hand; and fancy my astonishment when I
awoke to find myself clutching the arm of the night nurse, whom I had
startled out of a comfortable doze at my bedside!
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