On the fifth day it was decided that I had but a few hours left, and
that a transfusion of mercurochrome was the last forlorn hope. It
was a hazardous alternative and would either kill or cure in about
forty minutes; but if it killed there was nothing to lose, for I was
lost anyway; if it cured there was everything to gain. A well known
physician, afflicted with septicemia in a neighboring hospital, had
taken it the day before, and died in thirty minutes. My wife asked one
of Doctor Will’s assistants for his honest opinion on the probable
outcome in my case; to which he answered, “He still has a fighting
chance. If he doesn’t die of uremic convulsions inside of forty
minutes, he may recover.”
My family were brought together at the bedside.... Lying in a state of
semi-consciousness, I remember seeing one of the doctors approach the
bed with a huge bottle of reddish fluid (mercurochrome) to which a long
rubber tube was attached. Having no idea of what they were going to do,
and mistaking this for the usual pink mixture of loganberry juice and
castor oil, which I supposed they wanted me to drink through the tube,
I closed my eyes and set my teeth. Presently someone raised my arm,
then I felt the needle inserted, and when the fluid began to circulate
through the veins, my limbs became numb; and as the paralytic feeling
crept over my body it seemed as if the bed were slowly moving from
under me. Then I imagined my head was in the hub of a great horizontal
wheel which spun around with terrific speed for a while, and gradually
slowed down till it barely moved. Like the propeller of an aeroplane,
its momentum held me aloft over a deep chasm, and when the speed
slackened I could feel myself descending, feet first, into the depths.
I reached frantically about endeavoring to find something to cling to,
but there were no supports, and startled at the increasing rapidity
of my descent I opened my eyes--as one will awake from a terrifying
dream--and stared about, wondering why so many people had gathered in
my room. One physician clung to my pulse, while the other attendants
stood about with bowed heads. Suddenly I caught the meaning of it all,
and as I closed my eyes resignedly I felt my loved one’s tears on my
face. With a final conclusion that all was over, I remember whispering,
“Good-by; no flowers, please.” I knew nothing more for two days.
I have heard that persons approaching the gates of Paradise have
been known to hear music and angel voices beckoning from within;
and although fully conscious of the fact that I was close upon the
portals of eternity I could catch not the slightest glimpse or sound
of anything beyond; which convinces me that there is at such times no
physical communication whatever between this world and Elysium, unless
perchance it happened that I was nearing the wrong gate.
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