Next he was in the deep woods of the Æduans, high up in the hills,
three days and more from posting-houses and from stone roads. The
forest was damp all about him. He was in a clearing with two priests,
his companions, and the wilder men of the hills were watching him
sullenly while he broke their uncouth idol with an axe and preached
to them the living God. But as he watched them he doubted their mood,
and as he went back down the hills he feared their trapping him--even
the chief whom he had baptized. Then all those trees quite faded,
and he was in a place where the magnificence of the emperor shone--a
huge figure, too strong and squat, with a bull neck corded, and the
heavy, flushed face of exaggerated command. And he saw standing,
richly clothed amid a group of clients, the eager, furtive, not sane
face of Priscillian, and yet he pleaded for the life of that man.
And lying so in his weakness and dying, his lips tried to frame the
cry which came but as a whisper, though a whisper shrill within the
soul: “The Church will have no blood. He is a bishop. The Church will
have no blood.” And again he was in the forum outside the palace
wall at Treves, standing ashamed and with head bent, defeated, while
the crowd came laughing and jostling by from the execution of the
magician. He stood there alone and baulked, knowing that blood had
been shed, and that he had been powerless.
Next, time rolled back within him, and he was but just free of his
uniform, still so very young and full of his first fervours, and
behind him were high mountains and about him the meres, the ditches,
the reeds, the low lines of trees, and the hot sky of Lombardy. The
straight imperial road ran right before him for a mile and more, and
he limped along it at the end of his long, lonely journey towards
the splendours, the high colonnades and the clangour of Milan. And
even as he went, wholly bound up within himself and considering his
mission from the Lord, he felt again that great fear which is not
of this world, and which stands at last on the threshold of every
death. His heart began to faint in him, and his thews were loosened,
so that he could hardly stand. There was evil all around, and that
awful presence of the Pit. Martin in his dream groaned and turned
upon the reeds whereon he lay, so that the priests about him thought
his agony had come. Within his mind he was still upon that Milan
road, and still the oppression of evil grew, and still the dreadful
mastery of the abyss and of things condemned. Then he heard once
more right through him in its deep tones, as he had heard it then
in his boyhood, the challenge of hell, bidding him answer whither he
was bound and what business he purposed to do. And Martin, as he lay
dying, was again himself of those days, and found himself answering
again from within: “Oh, thou foul beast, I go to do the work of my
Lord.” And again the mortal cold seized him everywhere as he felt,
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