Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other storiesMagruder, Julia
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Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other stories
Magruder, Julia
Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“Bertie, how can you, how dare you think of such a thing? It is the one
thing on earth I couldn’t forgive you for. I can forgive utterly and
freely your getting tired of me, and wanting a cleverer, handsomer,
more amusing wife. It is nothing but natural that you should, and I
can see it. But, oh, my dear darling, don’t believe that I could ever
love any one else! If I thought you would believe that of me, I don’t
believe I could help killing myself. Promise me, Bertie; give me your
word, you’ll never say such a thing as that again.”
“I promise, child; I promise,” he replied, half-awed by the intensity
of her reproach. “You are a mystery to me, and I’m a mystery to myself,
to have won such love.”
“You didn’t win it,” she said; “you just got it, by being what you are.”
“But no one else has ever given it to me--or ever will,” he added, with
conviction.
“Ah!” she said, with a deep, indrawn breath, sitting upright on his
knee, and clasping her hands tight together, “you will find that out,
Bertie! I know no one will ever love you as I do.”
“I know it too,” he said, a look of despondency suddenly crossing his
face.
“Bertie,” she said, timidly. “Don’t be angry with me if I ask you
something.”
“I warned you not to ask questions.”
“Yes, I know, but I’m not going to do anything to bother you. I promise
that, and you know I always keep my word. Only, if you would tell me
about things, it would be easier than hearing it from others, or from
the papers. But suppose,” she was watching his face intently, to see if
its expression permitted her to go on, “suppose,” she said, timidly,
“you were to grow tired of her, and wanted her, for your sake, to give
you your freedom. Do you think she’d love you enough to do what I have
done?”
A curious smile came suddenly to his face:
“Do what you have done?” he said. “I think she’d probe for my heart
with a polished stiletto sooner, or put a spider into my dumpling!”
“Then she loves herself better than she loves you--and I love you
better than I love myself!”
She said these words with an infinite satisfaction, and the expression
of her face was triumphant--almost happy. Her cheeks had still that
feverish color, and her eyes were wide and brilliant, as they rested
with a hungry, expectant look upon his face. He, meantime, sat silent,
looking into the fire. When, at last, compelled by her steady gaze, he
looked at her, there was such dumb, intense entreaty in her eyes as he
could not misunderstand.
“Mim,” he said, in a whisper, “do you want me to kiss you?”
The tears sprang to her eyes. “If you wouldn’t mind--just once,” she
answered.
Their lips met in a long kiss. As he drew backward from it, he put her
gently from him, and rose to his feet.
“I must say good-by, now,” he said. “It’s time for me to go.”
She gave a little cry, and looked at him with a half-distracted gaze,
as she said, excitedly:
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