Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other storiesMagruder, Julia
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Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other stories
Magruder, Julia
Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“Oh, not yet--not yet, surely! I thought you would stay for hours. Oh,
Bertie, don’t leave me yet--just as we were so happy! My heart will
break!”
She turned away with an instinct to conceal from him the agony in her
face. He saw her wring her little hands together, and then put them
to her lips and bite them, and he knew she was making an effort, for
his sake, not to cry. But it was worse still to see this courageous
struggle with agony, and his one thought was to get away.
“Bertie,” she said, suddenly turning toward him her pallid and
terrified face, “I’m going to bear it if I can. I’ll do my very best,
but if--if I find I can’t--if it is going to be like this always, and I
can’t bear it, would you mind it very much--do you think you could keep
from letting it make you unhappy--if I couldn’t bear it--and killed
myself?”
“Mind it! What are you talking about! Why, what do you think I’m made
of? I should never have another happy moment as long as I lived. You
would simply make me a miserable man for life.”
“Then I won’t do it!” she said, hurriedly. “Indeed, indeed, I won’t!
Don’t look at me reproachfully, darling! Forget that I ever thought of
that. It was only a moment’s frenzy, and it doesn’t really amount to
anything. I give you my promise not to do it, and I know you’ll believe
in that.”
“Lord, what a relief!” he said, with a great sigh. “You frightened
me out of my wits; but of course you didn’t mean it. Now that you’ve
promised, I feel safe. You are too good and tender to give me such a
life-long sorrow as that would be. You never could have done it; but it
gave me a scare. You don’t believe it now, but once it is inevitable,
you’ll get over this extreme feeling about me, and be happy.”
“O Bertie,” she said, timidly, “I don’t want to make you angry,
dearest, but if you only _wouldn’t_ say that! I’m willing for you to
think of me as happy, if it would comfort you, but not by losing one
atom of my love for you. Try to think of it this way--that I’m happy
because I love you, so that to have given you the wish of your heart
makes me happier than to have the wish of my heart. Will you try?”
“Of course I will, darling. I’ll do anything on earth I can to please
you. I’m sure I ought. But now,” glancing at the clock, “I must really
be going. I’m obliged to get back on to-night’s train.”
It was no use struggling any longer. She had no strength for the
effort. With the weakness of utter surrender, she threw herself into
his arms and sobbed.
“There, there, baby,” he said, soothingly. “Don’t cry so, darling.
Why, there’s lots and lots to make you happy in life yet. I’ll always
remember you as the noblest and most unselfish little woman that ever
lived; you’ll have that to comfort you. Don’t let it make you so
wretched, precious child. You and Fleecy will have many merry days
together yet.”
At the mention of Fleecy, who was contentedly napping on the rug, the
poor little creature lifted her head, to say, brokenly:
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