Theological questions did not much concern him, and he found in Horace,
Montaigne, Swift, and the County History whatever mental exercise he
needed. So far he was the son of his father, but his mother had her
share in him. She was a strange creature, often shaken by presentiments.
Years after she was married her husband had to go to Penrith on some
business which she knew would keep him there for a night. She got it
into her head when she was alone in the evening that something had
happened to him. She could not go to bed nor sit still, and at three
o’clock in the morning she called up her servant and bade him saddle his
horse and hers. Off they started for Penrith, and she appeared before
her astonished husband just as he was leaving his room at the inn for an
early breakfast. She rushed speechless into his arms and sobbed.
‘What is the matter?’ he cried.
‘Nothing.’
‘Nothing wrong at home?’
‘Nothing.’
She passed her hands slowly over his face as if to reassure herself,
pushed back his hair, looked in his eyes, took both his hands and said
softly, ‘Not another word, please.’
He understood her, at least in part. She remained quietly at the inn
till the afternoon and then went home with him. She was also peculiar in
her continual reference to first principles. The meaningless traditions,
which we mistake for things, to her were nothing. She constantly asked,
‘why not?’ and was therefore dangerous. ‘If you go on asking “why not?”’
said her aunt to her once, ‘mark me you’ll come to some harm.’ She saw
realities, and yet—it was singular—she saw ghosts. Mr. Radcliffe did not
obviously resemble his mother, nor did Kate, and yet across both of them
there often shot clear, and at times even flashing gleams, indisputable
evidence that in son and granddaughter she still lived. It was in his
relationship to his daughter that Mr. Radcliffe betrayed his mother’s
blood. His reading, as we have said, was in Horace, Montaigne, and
Swift, but if Kate went away for no longer than a couple of days to her
cousins at Penrith, he used to watch her departure till she was hidden at
the first bend of the road about half a mile distant, and then when he
went back to his room and looked at her empty chair, a half-mad,
unconquerable melancholy overcame him. It was not to be explained by
anxiety. It was inexplicable, a revelation of something in him dark and
terrible. In 1844 Kate Radcliffe was twenty-four years old. She had
never been handsome, and when she was sixteen her pony had missed its
footing on a treacherous mountain track and she narrowly escaped with her
life. She was thrown on a rock, and her forehead was crossed henceforth
beyond remedy with a long broad mark. She had never cared much for
company, and her disfigurement made her care for it less. She could not
help feeling that everybody noticed it, and most people in truth noticed
nothing else. She was ‘the girl with a scar.’ As time went on, this
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