When she returned, Charles was lover-like in his gratitude, but she
repulsed him, told him that he must get on with his designs for _The
Tempest_ and she would see what could be done about his troubles. For
the present, for a little while at all events, she proposed to leave
him and to stay with Julia Wainwright.
'I may have to tell her,' she said, 'but I don't think so.... I won't
let this woman ruin you, Charles.'
'I have hurt you far more than I have hurt her,' he said miserably. 'I
suppose things will never be the same. You'll always feel that I am
keeping things from you....'
'No. No. I know that is all that matters.... It is just the law that
is somehow wrong, giving advantage to any one who is mean enough to
take it.... But women _are_ mean.'
'Not you.'
'No. I do understand you, Charles, but I'm so hurt. I'm so tired I
don't think I can stand much more.'
'I'll do anything you want.'
'Then leave it to me.... The chief thing is your work, Charles. That
is all of you that matters.'
This was entirely Charles's view of himself, and, as he could not see,
yet, the effect of the intrusion of Kitty upon the brave girl who had
so childishly accepted his childishness he was unperturbed and free
from all anxiety.... So far his new career in London had been a
triumphant success, and it seemed to him incredible that it could be
checked by such a trifle as a forgotten wife. He thought of the money
that should come from the Imperium: money meant power, power meant the
removal of all disagreeable obstacles from his path. He licked his
lips.... England understood money and nothing else. He would talk to
England in her own language and when he had caught her attention he
would speak his own.... Things were going so splendidly: a man like
himself was not going to be upset by trifles. He had worked in exile
for so long: surely, surely he would be able to reap his reward.
Clara meanwhile was shocked almost out of her youth. She did not weep.
There were no tears in her eyes in which there slowly gathered a fierce
expression of passionate pain. The bloom of youth was on her cheeks,
upon her lips, in all her still unformed features, but in her eyes
suddenly was the knowledge of years, concentrated, tyrannous, and
between this knowledge and her will there was set up a remorseless
conflict, from which she found relief only in a new gaiety and love of
fun.
It was impossible to discuss the matter any further with Charles, and
without a word to him she went away to Miss Wainwright's flat. That
good creature took her in without a word, without even a mute
curiosity. People's troubles were their own affair, and she knew that
they needed to be alone with them. She gave Clara her bedroom and
absented herself as much as possible, and kept Freeland out of the way.
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