"I'm afraid I've become a renegade as far as my social responsibilities
are concerned. I feel myself so inadequate to any real accomplishment,
Mrs. Hurst." Julia smiled guardedly and resentfully. Something in her
wanted to destroy the delicate aggressive repose of the woman opposite,
and felt helpless before it.
"Ah, you mustn't feel that, my dear. All of us feel it at times, but I
do believe that it depends on us women more than on our men folk,
perhaps, to allay the unrest of our day. Changing conditions of labor
have taken the homes away from so many. I think we should carry the
spirit of the home out into the world." Mrs. Hurst made a plaintive
little _moue_ of faded sauciness. As men were obliterated from her
personal interests, she reverted to a child's demure coquetry in
pleading her cause with her own sex.
"I can't look upon myself as the person for such a mission," Julia said.
Her eyes and lips were cold as she stared pleasantly at her visitor.
Julia felt a sudden sharp vanity in the thought of the sin against
society which initiated her into another life. She was confused by her
pride in adultery, and sought for an exalted ethical term which would
justify her sense of glorying in her act. Dudley--his hands upon me. I
couldn't be free. Eagles. The ethics of eagles. Julia knew that she was
absurd. She was humiliated and defiant. She was aware of her body under
her clothes as apart from her, and as though it were the only thing in
the world that lived. It was terrible to feel her body lost from her.
She fancied this was what people meant by the sense of nakedness. When
Dudley kissed her on the lips there was no nakedness, for she and her
body had the same existence. She despised Mrs. Hurst, who separated her
from her body. "You know I haven't a real genius for setting the world
right."
Mrs. Hurst was gentle and severe. "We can't afford to lose you! I shall
ask your delightful husband to influence you. As for genius--I imagine
each of us has his own definition of that. We all think you showed
something very much like genius in your conduct of the college campaign
fund last winter. You should hear Charles expatiate on your cleverness
as a business woman. We are practical people, Julia Farley, and we do
need money. It is the golden key which opens the door for most of our
ideals, I'm afraid."
Julia frowned slightly and tried to control her irritation. "Why can't
Mr. Hurst undertake some of the financial problems? He would reduce my
poor little efforts to such insignificance."
"But there you are, my dear! Charles lives in a man's world. He doesn't
understand these things. Women are the conscience of the race." Mrs.
Hurst smiled again and in her small mouth showed even rows of artificial
teeth.
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