When Julia woke in the night beside Laurence she perceived her body
lying there naked and apart, and hands moving over it--horrible and
secret hands. In the daytime in the street the body walked with her
outside her clothes. With strange men her consciousness of that horrible
impersonal flesh that was hers, though she knew nothing of it--though it
belonged to the whole world--was most acute.
* * * * *
The curtains moved and the spots of light on the floor opened and closed
like eyes. A fly had crept inside the screens and made a singing noise
against the window. A vase of flowers was on the table, and the shadow
of a blossom, rigid and delicate, fell in the bar of sunshine that
bleached the polished wood. There was pale sunshine on the chess board
at which May and Paul were playing. Light took the color from the
close-cropped hair at the nape of Paul's neck, and, when May glanced up
at him, filled her eyes with brilliant vacancy so that she looked
strange.
May bent forward again, her mouth loose in wonder.
Paul made a stupid move.
"Ah! You've lost him!" Aunt Julia said.
He did not answer her, but his shoulders took a resentful curve. He felt
as if the veins in his temples were bursting, pouring floods of darkness
before his eyes. He wished he might be rid of her, always there in the
room beside him and May. He pushed forward another piece.
Aunt Julia came and stood beside him. She leaned down. She leaned down
and laid her hand on his arm. "If only you hadn't lost that knight!"
The sound of her voice made everything dark again. He resented her more
than he had ever resented anything on earth.
"Let me move for you once, Paul, child."
"But that won't be fair, Aunt Julia!" May watched them with a sudden
brightening and dimming of the eyes. She was startled by the look of
Aunt Julia's faintly flushed face so close to Paul's. What makes him
look like that!
"I'll play for you, dear, too," Aunt Julia said. She was sorry for
herself because her loneliness made her want even the children. She was
tender of them. They could not understand her. She would not admit to
herself that Paul's response to her presence thrilled and strengthened
her. She wanted to be kind to the poor awkward boy. May was such a
baby. "Will you let me move your pawn there, May?"
May nodded. She was restive. She wanted to move for herself. When she
resumed the game her eyes became wide and engrossed. "Check! Check!" She
came out of her delight. She was clapping the palms of her thin hands
and they made a muffled sound. They fell apart abruptly. Once more Aunt
Julia was leaning close to Paul.
"You finished me all right, May."
May wondered if Paul were angry with her. What made his eyes so hard!
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