Through the tall, open windows of the dining room, Julia, seated with
some mending, could see the dull line of the roofs in the next street,
and the dreary sky shadowed with soiled milky-looking clouds. The grass
in the back yard was a bright dead green. It had grown tall. Flurries of
moist acrid wind swept across it, and it bent all at once with a long,
undulant motion that was like voluptuous despair. The table cloth rose
heavily and fell in a spent gesture against the legs under it. Julia's
black muslin dress beat gently about her ankles.
Then the wind passed. The grass blades were fixed and still. In the
silent room the ticking of a small clock on a _secrétaire_ sounded
labored and blatant. The odor of the cake that Nellie was baking filled
the warm air.
Julia heard the postman's whistle and Nellie's heavy step in the hall.
Julia thought of Nellie, of the old woman's sureness and silence--a lean
old savage woman of many lovers. In all the years that the old Negress
had been there she had never showed the need of a confidant. Her
children had abandoned her and she had no tie with any human creature
save the old man whom she supported who came sometimes to do odd chores.
Julia wondered what had poisoned the white race and given it the need of
sanction from some outside source. She wanted a justification of
herself, but did not know from what quarter she should demand it.
Nellie entered with a letter and Julia, recognizing the handwriting at
once, left it on the table without opening it. As long as the letter lay
on the table unknown she controlled its contents.
She turned her back to it and watched the branches of the elm tree,
which were stirring again, heavily and ceaselessly, against the fence.
Her needle pricked her finger and a rust-colored stain spread in the bit
of lace which she was mending. The sun burst through the clouds and the
room was filled with the shadowless glare, and with moist intense heat.
Julia suddenly took up the letter and tore it open with a nervous jerk.
She dropped her needle. Where it fell on the polished floor it made a
tinkling sound like a falling splinter of glass.
She did not question or analyze Dudley's statement of his mood. All she
knew was that he was flinging her away from him into herself. There was
something composed and final about the letter. When she reread it, it
overcame her with helplessness. The lie she had lived in had burdened
her, and she could not justify her resentment of the suggestion that she
tell the truth.
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