Perhaps it was not the first time that Nelly had heard this prayer. It
did not surprise her as it did Rhoda. Miss Farren watched Ralph's face
earnestly, till it had regained its usual look of peace.
"Mr. Channell," she began, yielding to a sudden impulse, "I'm sure you
must have suffered a great deal. Forgive me for saying so much," she
added, "but I've sometimes thought that you have the look of a victor."
He turned towards the house, holding Nelly's hand in his.
"I must answer you in another's words," he replied. "They are better
than any of mine. 'To me also was given, if not victory, yet the
consciousness of battle, and the resolve to persevere therein while
life or faculty is left.'"
"The consciousness of battle," Rhoda repeated to herself. "Perhaps that
was what St. Paul felt when he found a law in his members warring
against the law in his mind. And perhaps it's a bad thing to be
conscious of no warfare at all."
And then she began to wonder if she were anything like Robert Clarris
before he fell. Had she ever really heard the Lord's voice? Were not
her ears deafened by the clamour of self-conceit? Alas, it goes ill
with us when we mistake the voice of self-congratulation for the voice
of God!
But there came a time when Rhoda reached the very bottom of the Valley
of Humiliation. She grew conscious that she, a strong, self-reliant
woman, had silently given a love that had never been asked of her. When
a man takes a woman by the hand, and lifts her above her old self, it
is ten to one that she falls in love with him.
We all know what it is to wonder at the change that love makes in a
woman. We have marvelled often what that clever man could have seen
in this commonplace girl, but we admit that he has made her a new
creature. Perhaps, like the great sculptor, he attacked the marble
block with Divine fervour, believing that an angel was imprisoned in
it. And his instincts were not wrong after all. The shapeless stone was
chipped away and the beautiful form revealed.
But Rhoda had no reason to think that Ralph Channell cared for her more
than for others. In every respect he was above her. The rector (rectors
are great persons in country villages) had found out that Mr. Channell
was a thoughtful and cultivated man. The rector's family said that he
was charming, and they wondered why he shut himself up with the Farrens
in their dull cottage. Nobody ever intimated that he was thinking of
Rhoda. All the country people had settled that she was to be an old
maid. She was too good for the farmers, and not good enough for the
squires' sons. And for many a year Rhoda had been very comfortably
resigned to her fate.
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