Bit by bit, however, she had let her heart go, and she awoke one day,
suddenly and miserably, to the knowledge that she had parted with the
best part of herself. There is no need to tell how or when she made the
discovery. A chance word, a trivial incident, may send us to look into
the casket where we kept our treasure, and we find it empty.
CHAPTER X.
THE STORY OF THE ONE DARK HOUR.
Rhoda tried hard to conceal her loss. Now that the treasure was gone,
she double-locked the casket. No one, she resolved, should know how
poor she was. So well did she play her part, that those around thought
her sterner and harder--that was all.
Her manner to Ralph changed visibly. She began to avoid his company;
their familiar conversations were at an end. Her whole energy was now
devoted to one endeavour--to keep him in ignorance of that which he had
won. If she were poor, he should be none the richer. And thus, poor
soul, she went about her daily duties, putting on a hard face to hide
her weakness. Even Nelly found that Rhoda was not so pleasant as she
used to be, and the child turned more and more to Mr. Channell. Was he
gaining her too?
"I am losing everything, and he is getting everything," said Rhoda, to
herself. "Perhaps this is God's way of showing me how small my strength
is. Haven't I lost the very thing that I thought myself best able to
keep?"
It will always be so with those whom the Lord teaches. In one way or
another the humbling process must be gone through. Sometimes it is seen
of all men; sometimes it is known to Him alone. But as certainly as He
loves us "shall the nail that is fastened in the sure place be removed,
and be cut down and fall; and the burden that was upon it shall be cut
off, for the Lord hath spoken it." In the soul that He makes his own He
will not leave a single peg to hang self-confidence upon. And when our
chamber walls are bare, and the tawdry rags of self-esteem are swept
out, He will enter and fill the room with sweetness.
One afternoon, in the golden harvest-time, Rhoda and Nelly sauntered up
into the wheat-fields. The reapers were resting under the hedges; in
the largest field nearly all the corn had been gathered into sheaves.
Rhoda tired quickly now; for when the heart is heavy, the limbs are apt
to be weary. She stopped in the middle of the field and dropped down to
rest, leaning her back against a great russet shock. A few stray ears
nodded overhead, and Nelly nestled under their shadow.
She had always been an impulsive child, one of those children who will
ask any question that comes into their heads, and a good many come. She
had no notion of restraining her curiosity. If anything puzzled her,
she must always have it explained.
"Rhoda," she said, suddenly, in her clear little voice, "what has Mr.
Channell done to offend you? Don't you like him?"
The words struck Rhoda like a sharp unexpected blow. Without a moment's
pause she cried out harshly and bitterly--
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