Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Widows -- Fiction
He straightened himself, threw back his shoulders, and said in an
uncertain voice: “I hope you don’t take me for a coward.”
She made no direct reply, but continued: “Well, then, you thought I
loved you, I suppose--”
He smiled again, revived his moustache with a slight twist, and gave a
hardly perceptible shrug. “You ... ah ... managed to produce the
illusion....”
“Oh, well, yes: a woman _can_--so easily! That’s what men often forget.
You thought I was a lovelorn mistress; and I was only an expensive
prostitute.”
“Elizabeth!” he gasped, pale now to the ruddy eyelids. She saw that the
word had wounded more than his pride, and that, before realizing the
insult to his love, he was shuddering at the offence to his taste.
Mistress! Prostitute! Such words were banned. No one reproved coarseness
of language in women more than Henry Prest; one of Mrs. Hazeldean’s
greatest charms (as he had just told her) had been her way of
remaining, “through it all,” so ineffably “the lady.” He looked at her
as if a fresh doubt of her sanity had assailed him.
“Shall I go on?” she smiled.
He bent his head stiffly. “I am still at a loss to imagine for what
purpose you made a fool of me.”
“Well, then, it was as I say. I wanted money--money for my husband.”
He moistened his lips. “For your husband?”
“Yes; when he began to be so ill; when he needed comforts, luxury, the
opportunity to get away. He saved me, when I was a girl, from untold
humiliation and wretchedness. No one else lifted a finger to help
me--not one of my own family. I hadn’t a penny or a friend. Mrs. Mant
had grown sick of me, and was trying to find an excuse to throw me over.
Oh, you don’t know what a girl has to put up with--a girl alone in the
world--who depends for her clothes, and her food, and the roof over her
head, on the whims of a vain capricious old woman! It was because _he_
knew, because he understood, that he married me.... He took me out of
misery into blessedness. He put me up above them all ... he put me
beside himself. I didn’t care for anything but that; I didn’t care for
the money or the freedom; I cared only for him. I would have followed
him into the desert--I would have gone barefoot to be with him. I would
have starved, begged, done anything for him--_anything_.” She broke off,
her voice lost in a sob. She was no longer aware of Prest’s
presence--all her consciousness was absorbed in the vision she had
evoked. “It was _he_ who cared--who wanted me to be rich and independent
and admired! He wanted to heap everything on me--during the first years
I could hardly persuade him to keep enough money for himself.... And
then he was taken ill; and as he got worse, and gradually dropped out of
affairs, his income grew smaller, and then stopped altogether; and all
the while there were new expenses piling up--nurses, doctors, travel;
and he grew frightened; frightened not for himself but for me.... And
what was I to do? I had to pay for things somehow. For the first year I
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