Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Widows -- Fiction
Soon after her husband’s death, one of her cousins, the Miss Cecilia
Winter of Washington Square to whom my mother had referred, had died
also, and left Mrs. Hazeldean a handsome legacy. And a year or two later
Charles Hazeldean’s small estate had undergone the favourable change
that befell New York realty in the ’eighties. The property he had
bequeathed to his wife had doubled, then tripled, in value; and she
found herself, after a few years of widowhood, in possession of an
income large enough to supply her with all the luxuries which her
husband had struggled so hard to provide. It was the peculiar irony of
her lot to be secured from temptation when all danger of temptation was
over; for she would never, I am certain, have held out the tip of her
finger to any man to obtain such luxuries for her own enjoyment. But if
she did not value her money for itself, she owed to it--and the service
was perhaps greater than she was aware--the power of mitigating her
solitude, and filling it with the trivial distractions without which she
was less and less able to live.
She had been put into the world, apparently, to amuse men and enchant
them; yet, her husband dead, her sacrifice accomplished, she would have
preferred, I am sure, to shut herself up in a lonely monumental
attitude, with thoughts and pursuits on a scale with her one great hour.
But what was she to do? She had known of no way of earning money except
by her graces; and now she knew no way of filling her days except with
cards and chatter and theatre-going. Not one of the men who approached
her passed beyond the friendly barrier she had opposed to me. Of that I
was sure. She had not shut out Henry Prest in order to replace him--her
face grew white at the suggestion. But what else was there to do, she
asked me; what? The days had to be spent somehow; and she was incurably,
disconsolately sociable.
So she lived, in a cold celibacy that passed for I don’t know what
licence; so she lived, withdrawn from us all, yet needing us so
desperately, inwardly faithful to her one high impulse, yet so incapable
of attuning her daily behaviour to it! And so, at the very moment when
she ceased to deserve the blame of society, she found herself cut off
from it, and reduced to the status of the “fast” widow noted for her
jolly suppers.
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