Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Widows -- Fiction
I bent bewildered over the depths of her plight. What else, at any stage
of her career, could she have done, I often wondered? Among the young
women now growing up about me I find none with enough imagination to
picture the helpless incapacity of the pretty girl of the ’seventies,
the girl without money or vocation, seemingly put into the world only to
please, and unlearned in any way of maintaining herself there by her own
efforts. Marriage alone could save such a girl from starvation, unless
she happened to run across an old lady who wanted her dogs exercised
and her _Churchman_ read aloud to her. Even the day of painting
wild-roses on fans, of colouring photographs to “look like” miniatures,
of manufacturing lamp-shades and trimming hats for more fortunate
friends--even this precarious beginning of feminine independence had not
dawned. It was inconceivable to my mother’s generation that a
portionless girl should not be provided for by her relations until she
found a husband; and that, having found him, she should have to help him
to earn a living, was more inconceivable still. The self-sufficing
little society of that vanished New York attached no great importance to
wealth, but regarded poverty as so distasteful that it simply took no
account of it.
These things pleaded in favour of poor Lizzie Hazeldean, though to
superficial observers her daily life seemed to belie the plea. She had
known no way of smoothing her husband’s last years but by being false to
him; but once he was dead, she expiated her betrayal by a rigidity of
conduct for which she asked no reward but her own inner satisfaction. As
she grew older, and her friends scattered, married, or were kept away
from one cause or another, she filled her depleted circle with a less
fastidious hand. One met in her drawing-room dull men, common men, men
who too obviously came there because they were not invited elsewhere,
and hoped to use her as a social stepping-stone. She was aware of the
difference--her eyes said so whenever I found one of these newcomers
installed in my arm-chair--but never, by word or sign, did she admit it.
She said to me once: “You find it duller here than it used to be. It’s
my fault, perhaps; I think I knew better how to draw out my old
friends.” And another day: “Remember, the people you meet here now come
out of kindness. I’m an old woman, and I consider nothing else.” That
was all.
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