Political fiction; Russia -- History -- 1801-1917 -- Fiction; Russia -- Officials and employees -- Fiction
rogue of all our rogues, I assure you.... I can assure you from
experience, indeed. Of course, that is, if he is intelligent. But what
am I saying! The romantic is always intelligent, and I only meant to
observe that although we have had foolish romantics they don’t count,
and they were only so because in the flower of their youth they
degenerated into Germans, and to preserve their precious jewel more
comfortably, settled somewhere out there—by preference in Weimar or the
Black Forest.
I, for instance, genuinely despised my official work and did not openly
abuse it simply because I was in it myself and got a salary for it.
Anyway, take note, I did not openly abuse it. Our romantic would rather
go out of his mind—a thing, however, which very rarely happens—than
take to open abuse, unless he had some other career in view; and he is
never kicked out. At most, they would take him to the lunatic asylum as
“the King of Spain” if he should go very mad. But it is only the thin,
fair people who go out of their minds in Russia. Innumerable
“romantics” attain later in life to considerable rank in the service.
Their many-sidedness is remarkable! And what a faculty they have for
the most contradictory sensations! I was comforted by this thought even
in those days, and I am of the same opinion now. That is why there are
so many “broad natures” among us who never lose their ideal even in the
depths of degradation; and though they never stir a finger for their
ideal, though they are arrant thieves and knaves, yet they tearfully
cherish their first ideal and are extraordinarily honest at heart. Yes,
it is only among us that the most incorrigible rogue can be absolutely
and loftily honest at heart without in the least ceasing to be a rogue.
I repeat, our romantics, frequently, become such accomplished rascals
(I use the term “rascals” affectionately), suddenly display such a
sense of reality and practical knowledge that their bewildered
superiors and the public generally can only ejaculate in amazement.
Their many-sidedness is really amazing, and goodness knows what it may
develop into later on, and what the future has in store for us. It is
not a poor material! I do not say this from any foolish or boastful
patriotism. But I feel sure that you are again imagining that I am
joking. Or perhaps it’s just the contrary and you are convinced that I
really think so. Anyway, gentlemen, I shall welcome both views as an
honour and a special favour. And do forgive my digression.
I did not, of course, maintain friendly relations with my comrades and
soon was at loggerheads with them, and in my youth and inexperience I
even gave up bowing to them, as though I had cut off all relations.
That, however, only happened to me once. As a rule, I was always alone.
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