all true--he didn't touch the main point when I heard him, at all
events, and that satisfaction you so kindly wish me is, I am
afraid, not to be got from any man. The mystery of this world grows
and grows, and sticks out of every apparently trivial thing,
instead of lessening. I hope this feeling may not be the incipient
stage of insanity. Paul told the truth when he said that now we see
through a glass, _very_ darkly. I hope and trust that the rest may
be equally true, and that some day we shall see face to face. You
say it is easy to drown thought by well-doing, and is it not also
the soundest philosophy (so long of course as one doesn't humbug
oneself); since by simply thinking out a religion who has ever
arrived at anything that did not leave one's heart empty? Do you
ever see Willy James? Good-bye.
Needless enough surely to declare that such pages were essentially not
love-letters: that they could scarce have been less so seems exactly
part of their noble inevitability, as well as a proof singularly
interesting and charming that confident friendship may obey its force
and insist on its say quite as much as the sentiment we are apt to take,
as to many of its occasions, for the supremely vocal. We have so often
seen this latter beat distressfully about the bush for something still
deficient, something in the line of positive esteem or constructive
respect, whether offered or enjoyed, that an esteem and a respect such
as we here apprehend, explicit enough on either side to dispense with
those superlatives in which graceless reaction has been known
insidiously to lurk, peculiarly refresh and instruct us. The fine
special quietude of the relation thus promoted in a general
consciousness of unrest--and even if it could breed questions too, since
a relation that breeds none at all is not a living one--was of the
highest value to the author of my letters, who had already sufficiently
"lived," in her generous way, to know well enough in how different a
quarter to look for the grand inconclusive. The directness, the ease,
the extent of the high consideration, the felt need of it as a support,
indeed one may almost say as an inspiration, in trouble, and the free
gift of it as a delightful act of intelligence and justice, render the
whole exhibition, to my sense, admirable in its kind. Questions luckily
_could_ haunt it, as I say and as we shall presently see, but only to
illustrate the more all the equilibrium preserved. I confess I can
imagine no tribute to a manly nature from a feminine more final even
than the confidence in "mere" consideration here embodied--the comfort
of the consideration being in the fact that the character with which the
feminine nature was dealing lent it, could it but come, such weight. We
seem to see play through the whole appeal of the younger person to the
somewhat older an invocation of the weight suspended, weight of
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