Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
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Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
My poor Ennis lay for a long time in a low, exhausted state;
but the doctor gave hope, and at length he began perceptibly to
improve. His eagerness to be taught--more especially upon religious
subjects--continued; there was something so simple and childlike about
him; so touching in the terror which he felt with regard to death; so
winning in his weakness, so gentle in his goodness, or his aims after it,
that I could not help becoming deeply interested in him. He knew that
there was a God--a Being to be dreaded in his view--a Life after death;
beyond this--nothing. Our blessed Lord’s life and death, His work on
earth, His giving His life for us, all seemed new and strange ideas which
he could with difficulty grasp. Never can I forget the intense interest
with which he followed me, step by step, through the dark and dread story
of The Last Week; I almost feared the excitement which burned in his
eager eyes, till, as I closed, his pent-up feelings found vent in the
words, “It was too bad!” His powers of language were limited, not so his
powers of feeling; and I imagine that we, to whom that mighty mystery is
so familiar from childhood, can scarcely conceive its effect when heard
for the first time. He took perfect delight in hearing and learning the
prayers from the Prayer-book, and would ask for them constantly. And here
I must speak of the wonderful power which seems to live, in the short,
terse nature of our matchless Collects, to stay a weak and wandering
mind; “the soul by sickness all unwound” cannot bear many words; but the
concentration of devotion, in many of those short, earnest sentences,
seems to meet every longing and to supply every want. As Ennis so greatly
needed instruction, at my request a clergyman, who had frequently visited
the hospital, and whose ministrations were always peculiarly acceptable
to the men, came often and spent much time with him.[2] At one time,
when I was not on duty, he sent for me. “Why did you want me, Ennis, the
ladies who are here are so very kind to you, and do everything you can
want?”
[2] This was, of course, before the Government appointment of
our present faithful and efficient Chaplain, whose earnest and
self-denying labors render any such service quite needless.
“Not you, but I do so want that pretty prayer you know.” The “Prayer for
a sick person” from our Prayer-book. I doubt whether any one was ever
more gratified, by being told that they were not wanted personally, but
merely for what they could bring.
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