Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
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Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
He has been perfectly blind for many days, and is evidently sinking. At
the appointed hour we gather around his bed, the Chaplain, the Surgeon in
charge, (whose presence and interest in the occasion impress the men far
more than he imagines,) M., and myself. The holy words are pronounced,
and he is enlisted as “Christ’s faithful soldier and servant unto his
life’s end;” that end, which, alas! seems so very near. As we approach
to speak to him, he looks up, no longer with the blank, vacant gaze of
sightless eyes, which he has worn for so many days, but with a bright
smile of recognition, saying, in a tone almost of surprise, “Friends,
dear friends, God has given me light.” I thought he alluded to the light
which had just dawned upon his spirit, but not so; it seemed as though
the inward illumination had indeed extended to his physical frame;
sight was restored to the darkened eye of the body also, and mercifully
continued during the few remaining days of his life. To the many, this
fact will appear a strange coincidence; to the few, something more.
Scarcely has the closing prayer ascended; scarcely have we turned to
leave the bedside, when there is a bustle--an excitement--a sudden stir.
“A man dying in the third ward; come quickly, come, won’t you?”
We hasten to the spot, and to our surprise find that the Angel of Death
is before us. A man, whom we had been watching for some time, ill with
that terrible scourge--the Chickahominy fever--and whom we had left not
half an hour since, apparently in no danger, by some strange change is
suddenly and certainly dying. His sister, who has been watching him,
night and day, had left him to prepare some drink for him; in her absence
he had attempted to rise from his pillow; the effort was too much, and he
had, as she imagined, fainted.
But to any eye, whose sad lot it has been to watch that dark, cold, grey
shadow, once seen, never forgotten, marvellous in its mystery, strange in
its stern solemnity, as it slowly settles on some loved face; to any ear,
that has listened to those long, convulsive breaths, with their longer
and more dreadful intervals, it could not but be evident that this was no
fainting, but the terrible sundering of soul and body. Man’s hand here
was powerless. In answer to the sister’s agonized appeal to the surgeon,
brandy is offered, but in vain; and we stand silently and sadly waiting
till the dread struggle shall be ended. And still we stand, and still we
wait. It seems as though something held and chained the soul to earth; it
cannot part--it cannot burst its earthly case.
One by that bed whispers to the chaplain--
“The Last Prayer.”
We kneel once more, and once more the wonderful words of the Prayer-book
speak for us in our hour of need. It is enough. The cord is broken--the
chain is loosed; the soul seems to rise upon the wings of those solemn
words; for ere they are done, a broken-hearted sister feels that she is
alone.
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