Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 1 (of 3)Grant, James
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Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 1 (of 3)
Grant, James
Afghan Wars -- Fiction
The child that is ill or absent, is always valued the most; so poor
Sybil was almost forgotten by her mother for the time. A few hours
more, and both husband and son had left her in tears, to separate in
London, each to pursue his own journey.
Of Richard's ultimate intentions, Denzil and Sybil were to be left in
ignorance, and also of the object and purport of his absence. So
Constance was left with her daughter only by her side.
The poor mother's heart felt as if thrust back upon herself now, for
she was the mistress of a great family secret, which, as yet, she
could not share even with Sybil.
So the long dreaded "to-morrow," had come, and other morrows
followed, and Constance began to feel herself most sadly alone.
Often she stole into the well-known room to kiss the pillow on which
her Denzil's cheek had rested; to weep over the bed as if a death had
been there, and not the departure of a gallant boy full of hope and
life; and on each occasion as she lingered there, she strove to
pourtray in fancy his face, as she last saw him, sleeping all
unconscious that she hovered near; and with a wild but loving
presentiment and hope that he would again occupy it some day, she
kept his room intact, exactly as he had left it; his books, his
fencing foils on those particular shelves, his old hat stuck round
with fishing flies, on that particular peg where he was wont to hang
it; his rods and guns, in yonder corner; though every detail, such as
these, reminded her of him more vividly, fed her grief and roused the
intense longing for his presence and return to her arms again.
"India--India?" she would say half aloud when communing with herself;
"it may be ten years of separation. Ten years! Oh--no, never,
surely! With my Richard's great influence as a peer of the realm,
that must never be permitted. In ten years what changes must
inevitably happen; who may be alive then, and who dead? Sybil should
then be seven-and-twenty--married perhaps--and to whom?--with
children it may be--my poor innocent Sybil! Oh no; three years at
the utmost, and Denzil shall be again by his mamma's side!"
So the lonely Constance pondered, hoped and lovingly spun out like a
web, her desires or mental view of the future, striving to gather
happiness therefrom; while Sybil sought in vain to cheer her with
music, to lure her out for a walk in the willowed dell, or a drive
along the coast road, in their pretty pony phaeton.
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