Let us now suppose that a miracle suddenly quicken his eyes and ears and
reveal to him, through the open window by his bedside, the dawn rising
over the plain, the song of the birds in the trees, the murmur of the
wind among the leaves and of the water lapping its banks, the echoing of
human voices among the morning hills. Let us suppose also that the same
miracle, completing its work, restore the use of his limbs. He rises,
stretches his arms to that prodigy which as yet for him possesses
neither reality nor name: the light! He opens the door, staggers out
amidst the effulgence; and his whole body is merged in the wonder of it
all. He enters into an ineffable life, into a sky whereof no dream could
have given him a foretaste; and, by a freak which is readily admissible
in this sort of cure, health, introducing him to this inconceivable and
unintelligible existence, wipes out in him all memory of days past.
What will be the state of this ego, of this central focus, the
receptacle of all our sensations, the spot in which converges all that
belongs in its own right to our life, the supreme point, the “egotic”
point of our being, if I may venture to coin a word? Memory being
abolished, will that ego recover within itself a few traces of the man
that was? A new force, the intellect, awaking and suddenly displaying
unprecedented activity, what relation will that intellect keep up with
the inert, dull germ whence it has sprung? Where, in his past, shall the
man fix his moorings so that his identity may endure? And yet will there
not survive within him some sense or instinct, independent of his
memory, his intellect and I know not what other faculties, that will
make him recognize that it is indeed in him that the liberating miracle
has been wrought, that it is indeed his life and not his neighbour’s,
transformed, irrecognizable, but substantially the same, that has issued
from the silence and the darkness to prolong itself in harmony and
light? Can we picture the disorder, the wandering hither and thither of
that bewildered consciousness? Have we any idea in what manner the ego
of yesterday will unite with the ego of to-day and how the “egotic”
point, the only point which we are anxious to preserve intact, will
behave in that delirium and that upheaval?
Let us first endeavour to reply with sufficient precision to this
question which comes within the province of our actual and visible life;
for, if we are unable to do this, how can we hope to solve the other
problem that stares every man in the face at the hour of death?
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