That is where we stand. For us, death is the one event that counts in
our life and in our universe. It is the point whereat all that escapes
our vigilance unites and conspires against our happiness. The more our
thoughts struggle to turn away from it, the closer do they press around
it. The more we dread it, the more dreadful it becomes, for it but
thrives on our fears. He who seeks to forget it has his memory filled
with it; he who tries to shun it meets naught else. It clouds everything
with its shadow. But though we think of death incessantly, we do so
unconsciously, without learning to know death. We compel our attention
to turn its back upon it, instead of going to it with uplifted head. All
the forces which might avail to face death we exhaust in averting our
will from it. We deliver death into the groping hands of instinct and we
grant it not one hour of our intelligence. Is it surprising that the
idea of death, which should be the most perfect and the most luminous of
ideas—being the most persistent and the most inevitable—remains the
flimsiest and the only one that is a laggard? How should we know the one
power which we never look in the face? How could it have profited by
gleams kindled only to help us escape it? To fathom its abysses, we wait
until the most enfeebled, the most disordered moments of our life
arrive. We do not think of death until we have no longer the strength, I
will not say, to think, but even to breathe. A man returning among us
from another century would have difficulty in recognizing, in the depths
of a present-day soul, the image of his gods, of his duty, of his love
or of his universe; but the figure of death, when everything has changed
around it and when even that which composes it and upon which it depends
has vanished, he would find almost untouched, rough-drawn as it was by
our fathers, hundreds, nay, thousands of years ago. Our intelligence,
grown so bold and active, has not worked upon this figure, has not, so
to speak, retouched it in any way. Though we may no longer believe in
the tortures of the damned, all the vital cells of the most sceptical
among us are still steeped in the appalling mystery of the Hebrew Sheol,
the pagan Hades, or the Christian Hell. Though it may no longer be
lighted by very definite flames, the gulf still opens at the end of life
and, if less known, is all the more formidable. And, therefore, when the
impending hour strikes to which we dared not raise our eyes, everything
fails us at the same time. Those two or three uncertain ideas whereon,
without examining them, we had meant to lean give way like rushes
beneath the weight of the last minutes. In vain we seek a refuge among
reflexions that are illusive or are strange to us and do not know the
roads to our heart. No one awaits us on the last shore where all is
unprepared, where naught remains afoot save terror.
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Bossuet, the great poet of the tomb, says:
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