“It is not worthy of a Christian”—and I would add, of a man—“to postpone
his struggle with death until the moment when it arrives to carry him
off.”
It were a salutary thing for each of us to work out his idea of death in
the light of his days and the strength of his intelligence and stand by
it. He would say to death:
“I know not who you are, or I would be your master; but, in days when my
eyes saw clearer than to-day, I learnt what you were not: that is enough
to prevent you from becoming mine.”
He would thus bear, graven on his memory, a tried image against which
the last agony would not prevail and from which the phantom-stricken
eyes would draw fresh comfort. Instead of the terrible prayer of the
dying, which is the prayer of the depths, he would say his own prayer,
that of the peaks of his existence, where would be gathered, like angels
of peace, the most lucid, the most rarefied thoughts of his life. Is not
that the prayer of prayers? After all, what is a true and worthy prayer,
if not the most ardent and disinterested effort to reach and grasp the
unknown?
4
“The doctors and the priests,” said Napoleon, “have long been making
death grievous.”
And Bacon wrote:
“_Pompa mortis magis terret quam mors ipsa._”
Let us, then, learn to look upon death as it is in itself, free from the
horrors of matter and stripped of the terrors of the imagination. Let us
first get rid of all that goes before and does not belong to it. Thus,
we impute to it the tortures of the last illness; and that is not just.
Illnesses have nothing in common with that which ends them. They form
part of life and not of death. We readily forget the most cruel
sufferings that restore us to health; and the first sun of convalescence
destroys the most unbearable memories of the chamber of pain. But let
death come; and at once we overwhelm it with all the evil done before
it. Not a tear but is remembered and used as a reproach, not a cry of
pain but becomes a cry of accusation. Death alone bears the weight of
the errors of nature or the ignorance of science that have uselessly
prolonged torments in whose name we curse death because it puts a term
to them.
5
In point of fact, whereas sicknesses belong to nature or to life, the
agony, which seems peculiar to death, is wholly in the hands of men. Now
what we most dread is the awful struggle at the end and especially the
last, terrible second of rupture which we shall perhaps see approaching
during long hours of helplessness and which suddenly hurls us, naked,
disarmed, abandoned by all and stripped of everything, into an unknown
that is the home of the only invincible terrors which the soul of man
has ever felt.
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