Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
"Pharisees!" cried Fuller at last. "Humbugs and hypocrites!"
The words were precisely those which Robert Carlton expected and must
endure, but against the plural number he felt bound to protest. "We are
not all alike, Mr. Fuller," he said; "thank God, I am but one out of
many thousands."
"You?" cried the saddler. "Gord love yer, reverend, did you think I
meant _you_? No, sir, it's the stupid fools and canting cowards _I_
mean, that take and hit a man as soon as ever he's down; not the man
they hit."
Mr. Carlton sat silent, astounded, and tingling between pain and
pleasure. He fancied he had run through the gamut of the emotions, but
here was a new one that he feared to dissect.
"Not the man," proceeded the saddler in raised tones--"not the man who
is worth the rest of the parish put together--saint or sinner--guilty or
innocent!"
Yes, it was pleasure! It was pleasure, acute and lawless, wicked,
ungovernable, and yet to be governed. To have one man's sympathy, how
sweet it was, but how shameful in a guilty heart that would be contrite
too! It had brought a colour to his face, a light to his eyes; ere the
one had faded, and the other failed, Robert Carlton's will had frozen
that tiny rill of comfort at its fount.
"You mustn't say that," was his belated reply; but it came curt and cold
enough to please himself.
"But I do say it," cried old Fuller, "and I will say it, and I won't say
a word more than I mean. Let there be no mistake between us, reverend: I
don't deny I felt what _is_ felt when first I heard; but when I come to
think of it, that fared to break my heart more'n to make that boil; and
when I thought a bit deeper, I see how easy that is to make bad worse.
Not as it ain't right bad; but that wasn't for us to make it worse. So
it was me fetched Tom Ivey. And now he tells me what he ups and says
himself when all was over. 'Gord love yer, Tom,' says I, 'you'll be
ashamed of that when you're a man of my experience! You forget the good
our reverend's been doing amongst us all this time, and you think only
o' this here evil. I'll go up,' says I, 'and I'll show him there's one
fair-minded, level-headed man o' the world in this here hotbed o' fools
and Pharisees.'"
"But Tom was right, and you were wrong."
"Don't tell me, reverend," said the saddler, edging his chair nearer to
the long limp figure under the lamp. "You can't undo the good you've
once done, not if you try. Leave religion out of it, and look at all
you've done for the poor: look at the coal club, and the book club, and
the dispensary, and the Young Man's----"
"Unhappily, Fuller, all this is beside the question."
And the cold tone was no longer put on; neither did it cover an emotion
which called for conscientious suppression; for these officious sallies
only fretted the spirit they were intended to soothe.
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