Pioneer Work in Opening the Medical Profession to WomenBlackwell, Elizabeth
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Pioneer Work in Opening the Medical Profession to Women
Blackwell, Elizabeth
Blackwell, Elizabeth, 1821-1910; Women physicians -- United States -- Biography
We at last reached our destination—viz. the school and parsonage of the
Rev. John Dickson (formerly a physician), where I was to teach music.
The situation of Asheville, entirely surrounded by the Alleghanies,
was a beautiful plateau, through which the rapid French Broad River
ran.
I must here note down an experience occurring at that time, unique
in my life, but which is still as real and vivid to me as when it
occurred.
I had been kindly welcomed to my strange new home, but the shadow
of parting with the last links to the old life was upon me. The
time of parting came. My two brothers were to leave on their return
journey early on the following morning. Very sadly at night we had
said farewell. I retired to my bedroom and gazed from the open window
long and mournfully at the dim mountain outlines visible in the
starlight—mountains which seemed to shut me away hopelessly from all
I cared for. Doubt and dread of what might be before me gathered in my
mind. I was overwhelmed with sudden terror of what I was undertaking.
In an agony of mental despair I cried out, ‘Oh God, help me, support
me! Lord Jesus, guide, enlighten me!’ My very being went out in this
yearning cry for Divine help. Suddenly, overwhelmingly, an answer
came. A glorious presence, as of brilliant light, flooded my soul.
There was nothing visible to the physical sense; but a spiritual
influence so joyful, gentle, but powerful, surrounded me that the
despair which had overwhelmed me vanished. All doubt as to the future,
all hesitation as to the rightfulness of my purpose, left me, and
never in after-life returned. I _knew_ that, however insignificant
my individual effort might be, it was in a right direction, and in
accordance with the great providential ordering of our race’s progress.
This is the most direct personal communication from the Unseen that I
have ever consciously had; but to me it is a revealed experience of
Truth, a direct vision of the great reality of spiritual existence,
as irresistible as it is incommunicable.
During my few months’ stay in this friendly household I borrowed
medical books from the Doctor’s library, for my purpose of becoming
a physician was known and approved of.
On one occasion a fellow-teacher laughingly came to me with a dead
cockchafer, which had been smothered between her pocket-handkerchiefs,
and offered it to me as a first subject for dissection. I accepted
the offer, placed the insect in a shell, held it with a hair-pin,
and then tried with my mother-of-pearl-handled penknife to cut it
open. But the effort to do this was so repugnant that it was some
time before I could compel myself to make the necessary incision,
which revealed only a little yellowish dust inside. The battle then
fought, however, was a useful one. In my later anatomical studies I
never had so serious a repugnance to contend with.
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