“Don't look at me like that,” she once said
somewhat sharply, when his eyes had made her so uncomfortable she could
no longer remain silent. Her remark had frightened Phillip Grimes away.
He got up at once, blushed, stammered something about having another
engagement, and hurried away.
In the street car, homeward bound beside Frank Metcalf, Clara thought of
Phillip Grimes and wondered whether or not he would have stood the
test of Kate Chanceller's speech regarding love and friendship. He had
confused her, but that was perhaps her own fault. He had not insisted
on himself at all. Frank Metcalf had done nothing else. “One should be
able,” she thought, “to find somewhere a man who respects himself and
his own desires but can understand also the desires and fears of a
woman.” The street car went bouncing along over railroad crossings
and along residence streets. Clara looked at her companion, who stared
straight ahead, and then turned to look out of the car window. The
window was open and she could see the interiors of the laborers' houses
along the streets. In the evening with the lamps lighted they seemed
cosy and comfortable. Her mind ran back to the life in her father's
house and its loneliness. For two summers she had escaped going home.
At the end of her first year in school she had made an illness of her
uncle's an excuse for spending the summer in Columbus, and at the end
of the second year she had found another excuse for not going. This year
she felt she would have to go home. She would have to sit day after day
at the farm table with the farm hands. Nothing would happen. Her father
would remain silent in her presence. She would become bored and weary of
the endless small talk of the town girls. If one of the town boys began
to pay her special attention, her father would become suspicious and
that would lead to resentment in herself. She would do something she did
not want to do. In the houses along the streets through which the car
passed, she saw women moving about. Babies cried and men came out of
the doors and stood talking to one another on the sidewalks. She decided
suddenly that she was taking the problem of her own life too seriously.
“The thing to do is to get married and then work things out afterward,”
she told herself. She made up her mind that the puzzling, insistent
antagonism that existed between men and women was altogether due to the
fact that they were not married and had not the married people's way
of solving such problems as Frank Metcalf had been talking about all
afternoon. She wished she were with Kate Chancellor so that she could
discuss with her this new viewpoint. When she and Frank Metcalf got off
the car she was no longer in a hurry to go home to her uncle's house.
Knowing she did not want to marry him, she thought that in her turn she
would talk, that she would try to make him see her point of view as all
the afternoon he had been trying to make her see his.
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