Pray You, Sir, Whose Daughter?Gardener, Helen H. (Helen Hamilton)
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Pray You, Sir, Whose Daughter?
Gardener, Helen H. (Helen Hamilton)
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He did not at all comprehend the girl's point of view, and she resented
his. He could not imagine why, and her twenty years of inexperience in
handling such a view of life as had suddenly grown up within her, made
her unable to express quite fully why she did resent his assumption that
she should not be allowed to use her heart or brain beyond the limits
set for their exercise by conventional theory. She could not express
in words why she felt insulted and outraged in her self-respect that he
should assume that life was and should be led by her, upon a distinctly
different and narrower plane than his own. She knew that she could not
accept his explanation, that it was his intense love that wished to
shield her from knowledge of all that was ugly--of all the deeper and
sadder meanings of human experience; but she felt unequal to making
him understand by any words at her command how far from her idea of an
exalted love such an assumption was.
That he should sincerely believe that as a matter of course much that
was and should be quite common in his own life should be kept from,
covered up, blurred into indistinction to her, came to her with a shock
too sudden and heavy for words. She had built an exalted ideal of
absolute mental companionship between those who loved. She had always
thought that one day she should pass through the portals of some vast
building by the side of a husband to whom all within was new as it would
be to her. She had fancied that neither spoke; that both read the
tablets of architecture--and of human legend on every face--so nearly
alike that by a glance of the eye she could say to him, "I know what you
are thinking of all this. It stirs such or such a memory. It strikes the
chord that holds these thoughts or those." But she read as plainly now
that this man who thought he loved her, whom she had grown to feel she
might one day love, had no such conception of a union of lives. To him
marriage would mean a physical possession of a toy more or less
valuable, more or less to be cherished or to be set under a glass case,
whenever his real life, his real thoughts, his deeper self were stirred.
These were to be kept for men--his mentally developed equals. She
understood full well that if she could have said this to him he would
have been shocked, would have resented such a contemptuous
interpretation of what he truly believed to be a wholly respectful love,
offered upon wholly respectful terms. But to her, it seemed the mere
tossing down of a filbert to a pretty kitten, that it might amuse him
for a few moments with its graceful antics. When he tired of the kitten,
or bethought him of the serious duties of life, he could turn the key
and count on finding the amusing little creature to play with again next
day in case he cared to relax himself with a sight of its gambols. She
resented such a view of the value of her life. She was humiliated and
indignant. The perfectly apparent lack of comprehension on his part of
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