Queenie's whim, Volume 2 (of 3) : $b A novelCarey, Rosa Nouchette
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Queenie's whim, Volume 2 (of 3) : $b A novel
Carey, Rosa Nouchette
English fiction -- 19th century
"Do I not know it? She will not be long with us, my poor Gertie, I
am sure of that; she is wasting every day, Langley; Dr. Marshall says
so. That is what makes it so bitter to think there can be no peace
now. If I could only make her happy; if I could be sure that she has
not repented of marrying me; but sometimes I think that if I had left
her amongst her own people she would not be pining herself to death
as she is now."
A look of intense pain crossed Langley's face.
"You must not think that."
"But how am I to help it, when I see her drooping and wasting before
my eyes, my own wife, whom I have sworn to cherish? Sometimes I
dread that she will tell me so; and then, how am I to bear it?"
"Gertrude will never tell you so;" but Mr. Chester shook his head.
"She will never tell you so," repeated Langley in a steadier voice.
"In spite of her unhappy nature Gertrude is a good woman. Harry, you
always listen to me as if--as if I were your sister; do try and
believe what I say this once."
"What am I to believe?"
"That it is not your fault. Gertrude says you are goodness itself to
her and the child; sometimes she speaks of you both so tenderly. Why
will you not go on bearing things as you have done, so patiently, so
nobly, and trust that Providence will bring good out of all this
evil?"
"Then you think that there is nothing that I can do for her. I half
hoped that you would find out something that she wanted, some wish
that she might express."
"Then I will let you know," replied Langley, with assumed
cheerfulness. In reality her heart was as heavy as lead, the talk
had oppressed her. Ever ready with her sympathy she had yet found it
hard to comfort him. What comfort could there be in such a home--a
hasty, ill-assorted marriage, defective sympathy, inequalities of
temper, physical sufferings impatiently borne, the daily burthen of
sickness without ameliorating circumstances, and all this patiently,
nay, heroically endured. What was she to say but that he was
blameless? Whose fault was it that all this had come upon him? that
he was walking by her side, groaning aloud for once in the very
heaviness of his spirit? What could her words be to him but
meaningless truisms, that must fall flatly on his ear? Had she any
comfort at all to offer him? was not such comfort placed beyond his
reach and hers for ever?
Unconsciously she slackened her pace as such thoughts came to her,
and in a few minutes the others joined them, and the conversation
became general.
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