Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
At length the decisive moment came. Lord Delaford made his proposals
to Isabella, and was accepted. Isabella herself, in all the flush
and agitation of the event which decided her fate for life, came to
Fanny’s room and told her what had happened,—not to triumph over her.
No: she had of late been so completely occupied by her own feelings,
that she had almost forgotten those she had suspected in Fanny, and
she came simply in the fulness of her heart, to give vent to all
the mingled emotions which every woman must experience on such an
occasion. Fanny had for some time prepared herself for this termination
to all her hopes and fears. Yet when the fact was certain, when she
heard it with her own ears, it came upon her like a thunderbolt. She
turned deadly pale; she thought that she was going to faint; but the
recollection that she should be committed, not only to her successful
rival, but through her to Lord Delaford himself, again restored her
self-possession, and after a momentary struggle, which, thanks to
the dim light of the embers over which they were sitting, and to the
engrossing nature of Isabella’s own thoughts, escaped observation,
she was able to say, “God grant you may both be as happy, as from the
bottom of my heart I wish you both to be!”
She spoke with earnestness and solemnity; and Isabella gazed on her
for a moment with surprise. The tone was not exactly that in which
young ladies usually converse upon such subjects, and Isabella’s former
suspicions flashed across her mind. But she looked at Fanny’s tearless
eyes, and satisfied herself that it was “only Fanny’s way. Her cousin
always had a more serious turn of mind than most girls.”
Perhaps she was as willing not to see, as Fanny was anxious to conceal,
the true state of the case; for though her thirst of admiration might
lead her to do that which was most painful to another, she was not more
unfeeling than a coquette must necessarily be. Moreover, prosperous
love opens and softens the heart, and for the time at least produces an
amiable disposition of mind. Though consideration for Fanny could not
have prevented her attempting to gain Lord Delaford, yet now that she
had succeeded in her object, it would have been exceedingly distressing
to her to know the pangs under which her gentle cousin was at this
moment writhing.
The half-hour bell rang. Isabella hurried away, and Fanny was left
alone with her dreary, desolate, mortified, crushed, hopeless heart.
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