Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
All about her sat forms, bowed like her own, scarcely moving. Of course,
of course--she nodded to herself--satisfied with her own acuteness.
Obviously, the Last Judgment.... They were all waiting for God.... He
hadn't arrived yet, it seemed.... Well, one might look about a little
first.... How queer Heaven smelt! The heart of Louise leapt within
her.... Now was the opportunity to find Mother.... Mother would be
somewhere among the dead.... But they all had ugly backs.... But
Mother.... Of course Mother would be standing on that high platform
place like a throne.... It was her place.... She always stood there....
Or did she? Was there not some one else? very like her ... with eyes ...
and a smile ... whom Louise knew so well? Wasn't it Mother? With patient
deliberation she strove to disentangle the two personalities, that
combined and divided and blurred again into one. There was Mother--and
the Other--one was shape and one was shadow--but which was real? There
was Mother--and the Other--who was Mother? No, who was--who was--The
Other was not Mother--but if not, who?--who?--who?--
A chorus of angels took up the chant: Who? who? who? They had flat,
faint voices, that gritted and whispered, like pens passing over paper.
Who? who? who?
The answer came thundering back out of infinite space in the awaited
voice of God....
"You have ten minutes more."
Louise gave a faint gasp. Reality enveloped her once more, licking up
her illusion as instantly and fiercely as an unnoticed candle will
shrivel up a woman's muslins. She stood naked amid the ashes of her
dreams.
She glanced wildly about her. The girls at her elbows were furiously at
work. The little examiner had put away his book and was staring at her.
Her eyes fell. Before her lay foolscap, fair and blank, save for her
name in the corner, and a close-printed paper that she did not
recognise, clamouring for information anent Shelley, and Carlyle, and
the Mermaid Tavern. Because, of course, she was at the Literature
examination, and there were ten minutes more.
And she had written nothing.
An instant she sat appalled. Then she snatched up her pen and wrote....
Her pen fled across the paper at Tam o' Shanter speed, leaving its trail
of shapeless, delirious sentences. She never paused to consider--she
wrote. She knew only that she had ten--twelve--fifteen questions to
answer, and ten minutes in which to do it. Ten minutes for a two and a
half hours' paper! No matter--if one stopped to think.... Hurry! hurry!
Shelley was born in 1792--he was the son of Sir Timothy Shelley, of
Field Place, near Horsham----
When the examiner collected the papers, she had written exactly two
pages.
CHAPTER XIX
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