Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the HeartMitchell, Donald Grant
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Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the Heart
Mitchell, Donald Grant
American essays -- 19th century
I have a little packet, not very large, tied up with narrow, crimson
ribbon, now soiled with frequent handling, which far into some winter’s
night, I take down from its nook upon my shelf, and untie, and open, and
run over, with such sorrow, and such joy—such tears and such smiles, as
I am sure make me for weeks after, a kinder and holier man.
There are in this little packet, letters in the familiar hand of a
mother—what gentle admonition—what tender affection!—God have mercy on
him who outlives the tears that such admonitions, and such affection
call up to the eye! There are others in the budget, in the delicate, and
unformed hand of a loved, and lost sister—written when she, and you were
full of glee, and the best mirth of youthfulness; does it harm you to
recall that mirthfulness? or to trace again, for the hundredth time,
that scrawling postscript at the bottom, with its _i’s_ so carefully
dotted, and its gigantic _t’s_ so carefully crossed, by the childish
hand of a little brother?
I have added latterly to that packet of letters; I almost need a new and
longer ribbon; the old one is getting too short. Not a few of these new
and cherished letters, a former reverie[1] has brought to me; not
letters of cold praise, saying it was well done, artfully executed,
prettily imagined—no such thing: but letters of sympathy—of sympathy
which means sympathy—the παθημί and the συν.
Footnote 1:
The first reverie—_Smoke, Flame and Ashes_—was published some months
previous to this, in the _Southern Literary Messenger_.
It would be cold and dastardly work to copy them; I am too selfish for
that. It is enough to say that they, the kind writers, have seen a heart
in the reverie—have felt that it was real, true. They know it; a secret
influence has told it. What matters it, pray, if, literally, there was
no wife, and no dead child, and no coffin in the house? Is not feeling,
feeling; and heart, heart? Are not these fancies thronging on my brain,
bringing tears to my eyes, bringing joy to my soul, as living, as
anything human can be living? What if they have no material type—no
objective form? All that is crude—a mere reduction of ideality to
sense—a transformation of the spiritual to the earthy—a leveling of soul
to matter.
Are we not creatures of thought and passion? Is anything about us more
earnest than that same thought and passion? Is there anything more
real—more characteristic of that great and dim destiny to which we are
born, and which may be written down in that terrible word—Forever?
Let those who will then, sneer at what in their wisdom they call
untruth—at what is false, because it has no material presence: this does
not create falsity; would to Heaven that it did!
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