Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the HeartMitchell, Donald Grant
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Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the Heart
Mitchell, Donald Grant
American essays -- 19th century
But can a heart once lit be lighted again? Authority on this point is
worth something; yet it should be impartial authority. I should be loth
to take in evidence, for the fact—however it might tally with my
hope—the affidavit of some rakish old widower, who had cast his weeds
before the grass had started on the mound of his affliction; and I
should be as slow to take, in way of rebutting testimony, the oath of
any sweet young girl, just becoming conscious of her heart’s
existence—by its loss.
Very much, it seems to me, depends upon the quality of the fire: and I
can easily conceive of one so pure, so constant, so exhausting, that if
it were once gone out, whether in the chills of death or under the
blasts of pitiless fortune, there would be no rekindling, simply because
there would be nothing left to kindle. And I can imagine, too, a fire so
earnest and so true that, whatever malice might urge, or a devilish
ingenuity devise, there could be no other found, high or low, far or
near, which should not so contrast with the first as to make it seem
cold as ice.
I remember in an old play of Davenport’s, the hero is led to doubt his
mistress; he is worked upon by slanders to quit her altogether—though he
has loved and does still love passionately. She bids him adieu, with
large tears dropping from her eyes (and I lay down my cigar to recite it
aloud, fancying all the while, with a varlet impudence, that some
Abstemia is repeating it to me):
—Farewell, Lorenzo,
Whom my soul doth love; if you ever marry
May you meet a good wife; so good, that you
May not suspect her, nor may she be worthy
Of your suspicion; and if you hear hereafter
That I am dead, inquire but my last words,
And you shall know that to the last I loved you.
And when you walk forth with your second choice,
Into the pleasant fields, and by chance talk of me
Imagine that you see me thin, and pale,
Strewing your path with flowers!
—Poor Abstemia! Lorenzo never could find such another—there never could
be such another, for such Lorenzo.
To blaze anew, it is essential that the old fire be utterly gone; and
can any truly-lighted soul ever grow cold, except the grave cover it?
The poets all say no: Othello, had he lived a thousand years, would not
have loved again—nor Desdemona—nor Andromache—nor Medea—nor Ulysses—nor
Hamlet. But in the cool wreaths of the pleasant smoke let us see what
truth is in the poets.
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