Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the Heart — John Shaqi
Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the HeartMitchell, Donald Grant
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Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the Heart
Mitchell, Donald Grant
American essays -- 19th century
—What is love—mused I—at the first, but a mere fancy? There is a
prettiness that your soul cleaves to, as your eye to a pleasant flower,
or your ear to a soft melody. Presently admiration comes in, as a sort
of balance wheel for the eccentric revolutions of your fancy; and your
admiration is touched off with such neat quality as respect. Too much of
this, indeed, they say, deadens the fancy, and so retards the action of
the heart machinery. But with a proper modicum to serve as a stock,
devotion is grafted in; and then, by an agreeable and confused mingling,
all these qualities, and affections of the soul, become transfused into
that vital feeling called love.
Your heart seems to have gone over to another and better counterpart of
your humanity; what is left of you seems the mere husk of some kernel
that has been stolen. It is not an emotion of yours, which is making
very easy voyages toward another soul—that may be shortened or
lengthened at will, but it is a passion that is only yours, because it
is _there_; the more it lodges there the more keenly you feel it to be
yours.
The qualities that feed this passion may indeed belong to you; but they
never gave birth to such an one before, simply because there was no
place in which it could grow. Nature is very provident in these matters.
The chrysalis does not burst until there is a wing to help the gauze-fly
upward. The shell does not break until the bird can breathe; nor does
the swallow quit its nest until its wings are tipped with the airy oars.
This passion of love is strong just in proportion as the atmosphere it
finds is tender of its life. Let that atmosphere change into too great
coldness, and the passion becomes a wreck—not yours, because it is not
worth your having—nor vital, because it has lost the soil where it grew.
But is it not laying the reproach in a high quarter to say that those
qualities of the heart which begot this passion are exhausted and will
not thenceforth germinate through all of your lifetime?
—Take away the worm-eaten frame from your arbor plant, and the wrenched
arms of the despoiled climber will not at the first touch any new
trellis; they can not in a day change the habit of a year. But let the
new support stand firmly, and the needy tendrils will presently lay hold
upon the stranger! and your plant will regain its pride and pomp,
cherishing, perhaps, in its bent figure, a memento of the old, but in
its more earnest and abounding life mindful only of its sweet dependence
on the new.
Let the poets say what they will; these affections of ours are not
blind, stupid creatures, to starve under polar snows when the very
breezes of heaven are the appointed messengers to guide them toward
warmth and sunshine!
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