At first she seemed not to hear him. Then she touched him briefly with
a vision ray.
"Devil Star," she murmured. "No. It's no use. There is something wrong.
Go away."
The utter calamitousness of that order held him rigid.
"There is nothing wrong," he whispered. "I am here. I shall go with
you."
Her visions wavered away. "No, there is something wrong," she repeated
stubbornly. "Why should I take you anywhere?" Then, craftily, "Where is
there to take you?"
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He burst into the full flood of her visions. He was trembling, trying
to reject what he heard, and not succeeding. Welling up from the
depths of him came knowledge of the ultimate horror he was facing.
Here--now--he must defeat the horror, or he was lost to it and would
live with it forever.
"I shall go with you," he said in bitter frenzy. "You shall take me
with you--to the forty-eighth band!"
And as soon as the words were out, he knew he should not have spoken
them. Her faint thoughts came:
"It is," she said wonderingly, "the place you had been when I last saw
you so many years ago. But no. It is impossible, Devil Star! Perhaps
you are deceiving me again."
He surged closer, reckless, uncaring. "Deceived you! It is you who
deceived me, deceived me and all purple lights. But I was not fooled
green light!"
And it flooded out of him, half in pride, half in scorn, the whole
story of his anarchistic fight against destiny.
"I fought you, World Rim," he lashed out, "and I fought all other green
lights--and the universe itself!" Stay it though he would, a yawning
cavern was engulfing him. He trembled, striving to bring himself up
out of that utter chaos of dark. But he spoke on, raging, alternately
frightened and astounded at what he was speaking.
And from World Rim came silence.
"Speak!" he said wildly. "There is a need in me, a longing. I do not
know what it is!"
She seemed to shrink, until she was small, her central light wavering.
"Then I know," she whispered. "Devil Star, you wish to die."
"No!"
"And you wish to create. To create and die."
He stared, his thought swirls shaken with those words.
"To create," he whispered.
Now her voice lifted, firm with conviction. "I see it all now, Devil
Star. You wish to die, and in dying to create. All energy creatures,
even green lights after their fourth giving-of-birth, must do that, or
they will be very unhappy. It is very clear. But also you want to find
that impossible band of decision you talk about."
His thoughts were tortured. Yet he knew that from her deeply buried
instincts, the true answer to his longing had come.
"Then I must create," he said hollowly. "And you must take me there--to
the forty-eighth band!"
"No." The word shattered against him. "For when we got there, it might
be the same as with--Dark Fire."
There was a humming within him, a growing madness. "We must go!" he
said violently.
Sparkles of flame shot from the core of her.
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