She had sought once more, on Christmas eve, 1869, to win him over to the
charms of that pious faith in miracles which filled her own soul, and to
lead him to that fountain “whence alone flowed strength and happiness
for her.” He answered her that she should not desire impossibilities,
and should hold to that which was good in him, as he gladly contented
himself with the many things that were excellent in her. Thereupon she
wrote, “Truth and uprightness are family virtues of the Lepsius race.
They have usually serene and well disposed natures, noble minds, which
despise everything that is trivial, and a strong sense of honor. Richard
adds to these a disposition to mediate and reconcile which makes him
greatly beloved. Intelligence and clear sobriety of thought prevail
among all the brothers and sisters. Richard has attained self-control
and moderation amongst the manifold relations of life, and to this his
prudence and his knowledge have added. Vain he is not; in short an
_homme comme il faut_. At every moment he does what he thinks right, and
therefore never has anything to repent of, (he once told me so
himself.)” She then calls his character a well-regulated and symmetrical
one, with a prevailing intellectual tendency, and, (we repeat), she
exclaims after a married life of four and twenty years, and speaking
with irritation, “If there were even any positive faults that I had to
bear in Richard--but there are no faults, he has none, it is only
community of faith which I miss.”
In this analysis of his character there are certainly many words of warm
appreciation, and indeed his uprightness was such that every judgment,
every expression of opinion which we hear him utter either publicly or
in writing to his acquaintances, corresponds exactly to what is
contained in confidential letters to his family, and the memoranda
intended for himself alone. But his own wife sees in him only the
well-meaning, faultless and stainless man of intellect, and forgets that
for him, too, there must have been a time when he had to strive against
those impulses and emotions to which few men are strangers. Regarding
this conflict he had written to her in former years a beautiful and
perfectly unreserved letter.
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