In this document, which gives us a key to the understanding of both his
intrinsic and his external qualities, he writes: “I recognize an
impulsive disposition as an old fault in myself, and I think I have
observed it also in you. Impulsiveness is often beautiful and charming,
and often resembles, in a small way, that which, on a large scale, is
among the most splendid products of human inspiration and noble
self-sacrifice. But it does not go deep, is not enduring in action,
dissipates itself for inferior aims, impedes the quiet and blessed
development of those tender and precious germs of grace, resignation,
cheerful peace, and ready receptivity for whatever is good in all things
and men, which slumber in every well-disposed nature. An impulsive
temperament shows itself in every quick emotion which outruns kindness,
in hasty judgment which so easily becomes prejudice, in a variable
temper, upon which the blood should have no influence, in a tendency to
complaint, against oneself as well as against others, and in love of
criticism of oneself and others. On this account the diaries which I
have sometimes kept have only helped me on the wrong way. The best
remedy for an impulsive nature, and one which never fails in the long
run, is a determination strengthened by religious conviction and faith
to acknowledge to ourselves every disagreeable, disturbing, passionate
impulse as wrong and unworthy of ourselves, and simply to put it aside,
without regret and without considering ourselves martyrs. Besides this,
there is great benefit in a regard for external forms, and refined,
gentle manners. These require for their outer clothing freedom from
passion, delicate and careful consideration, and an upright endeavor to
reach what is really unattainable, and please _all_ at once, except the
wicked. It is an enviable thing to please whether among courtiers or in
a students’ tavern, and yet to be neither a courtier nor rude. As you
see, I say all these and a great many more things like them to myself,
but do not follow them much in practice.”
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