England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“All at once, from the little chapel at the corner of the large garden
belonging to the Missions Etrangères, I heard the tinkle of the little
bell, announcing the elevation of the host. Down on his knees went
Clément, hands crossed, eyes bent down: while Urian stood looking on in
respectful thought.
“What a friendship that might have been! I never dream of Urian without
seeing Clément too,--Urian speaks to me, or does something,--but Clément
only flits round Urian, and never seems to see any one else!
“But I must not forget to tell you, that the next morning, before he was
out of his room, a footman of Madam de Créquy’s brought Urian the
starling’s nest.
“Well! we came back to England, and the boys were to correspond; and
Madame de Créquy and I exchanged civilities; and Urian went to sea.
“After that, all seemed to drop away. I cannot tell you all. However, to
confine myself to the De Créquys. I had a letter from Clément; I knew he
felt his friend’s death deeply; but I should never have learnt it from
the letter he sent. It was formal, and seemed like chaff to my hungering
heart. Poor fellow! I dare say he had found it hard to write. What could
he--or any one--say to a mother who has lost her child? The world does
not think so, and, in general, one must conform to the customs of the
world; but, judging from my own experience, I should say that reverent
silence at such times is the tenderest balm. Madame de Créquy wrote
too. But I knew she could not feel my loss so much as Clément, and
therefore her letter was not such a disappointment. She and I went on
being civil and polite in the way of commissions, and occasionally
introducing friends to each other, for a year or two, and then we ceased
to have any intercourse. Then the terrible revolution came. No one who
did not live at those times can imagine the daily expectation of
news,--the hourly terror of rumours affecting the fortunes and lives of
those whom most of us had known as pleasant hosts, receiving us with
peaceful welcome in their magnificent houses. Of course, there was sin
enough and suffering enough behind the scenes; but we English visitors
to Paris had seen little or nothing of that,--and I had sometimes
thought, indeed, how even Death seemed loth to choose his victims out of
that brilliant throng whom I had known. Madame de Créquy’s one boy
lived; while three out of my six were gone since we had met! I do not
think all lots are equal, even now that I know the end of her hopes; but
I do say, that whatever our individual lot is, it is our duty to accept
it, without comparing it with that of others.
“The times were thick with gloom and terror. ‘What next?’ was the
question we asked of every one who brought us news from Paris. Where
were these demons hidden when, so few years ago, we danced and feasted,
and enjoyed the brilliant salons and the charming friendships of Paris?
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