George Laird was thirty. At the opening of the war he was in an East-End
practice, and had volunteered at once for service with the Army. For the
first nine months he had been right up in the thick of it. A poisoned
arm; rather than the authorities, had sent him home. During that leave
he married Gratian. He had known the Piersons some time; and, made
conscious of the instability of life, had resolved to marry her at the
first chance he got. For his father-in-law he had respect and liking,
ever mixed with what was not quite contempt and not quite pity. The
blend of authority with humility, cleric with dreamer, monk with artist,
mystic with man of action, in Pierson, excited in him an interested, but
often irritated, wonder. He saw things so differently himself, and had
little of the humorous curiosity which enjoys what is strange simply
because it is strange. They could never talk together without soon
reaching a point when he wanted to say: “If we're not to trust our
reason and our senses for what they're worth, sir—will you kindly
tell me what we are to trust? How can we exert them to the utmost in
some matters, and in others suddenly turn our backs on them?” Once,
in one of their discussions, which often bordered on acrimony, he had
expounded himself at length.
“I grant,” he had said, “that there's a great ultimate Mystery,
that we shall never know anything for certain about the origin of life
and the principle of the Universe; but why should we suddenly shut up
our enquiring apparatus and deny all the evidence of our reason—say,
about the story of Christ, or the question of a future life, or our
moral code? If you want me to enter a temple of little mysteries,
leaving my reason and senses behind—as a Mohammedan leaves his
shoes—it won't do to say to me simply: 'There it is! Enter!' You
must show me the door; and you can't! And I'll tell you why, sir.
Because in your brain there's a little twist which is not in mine,
or the lack of a little twist which is in mine. Nothing more than that
divides us into the two main species of mankind, one of whom worships,
and one of whom doesn't. Oh, yes! I know; you won't admit that,
because it makes your religions natural instead of what you call
supernatural. But I assure you there's nothing more to it. Your eyes
look up or they look down—they never look straight before them. Well,
mine do just the opposite.”
That day Pierson had been feeling very tired, and though to meet
this attack was vital, he had been unable to meet it. His brain had
stammered. He had turned a little away, leaning his cheek on his hand,
as if to cover that momentary break in his defences. Some days later he
had said:
“I am able now to answer your questions, George. I think I can make
you understand.”
Laird had answered: “All right, sir; go ahead.”
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