French fiction -- Translations into English; Short stories, French -- Translations into English
“MADAME--I am certain you will feel nothing but
contempt for this letter, you will not even deem it worthy of
your anger. But, to a man falling into an abyss, what matters
one more stone at the bottom? You will think me mad, and you
will be right. You will perhaps pity me, for you will not doubt
my sincerity. However humble your piety may have made you, you
will understand the extent of my despair; you must already know
_how much evil and how much good your eyes can do_....
“You must know this already, madame; it is impossible that the
violent emotions I have portrayed upon the stage, my cries of
wrath and despair, have not twenty times revealed to you my
passion. You can not have lighted all these flames without
being conscious of what you did. Perhaps you played with me
as a tiger with his prey; perhaps the spectacle of my folly
and my tortures was your pastime. But no; to think so were to
presume too much. No, madame, I do not believe it; you never
thought of me. You felt the verses of the great Corneille, you
identified these with the noble passions of tragedy; that was
all. And I, madman that I was, I dared to think that my voice
alone sometimes awoke your sympathies, that my heart echoed
in yours, that between you and me there was something more
than between me and the public. Oh, my madness was arrant, but
it was sweet! Leave me my illusions, madame; what are they to
you? Do you fear that I should boast of them? By what right
should I do so, and who would believe me? I should only make
myself a laughing-stock of sensible people. Leave me this
conviction; it has given me more joy than the severity of the
public has caused me sorrow. Let me bless you, let me thank
you upon my knees, for the sensibility which I have discovered
in your soul, and which no one else has ever shown me; for the
tears which I have seen you shed for my fictitious sorrows,
and which have often raised my inspiration almost to delirium;
for the timid glances which sought, at least it seemed so, to
console me for the coldness of my audience. Oh, why were you
born to pomp and splendor! Why am I an obscure and nameless
artist! Why have I not riches and the favor of the public,
that I might exchange them for a name, for one of those titles
which I have hitherto disdained, and which, perhaps, would
permit me to aspire as high as you are placed! Once I deemed
the distinctions conferred upon talent superior to all others.
To what purpose, thought I, is a man a Chevalier or a Marquis
but to be the sillier, the vainer, and the more insolent? I
hated the pride of men of rank, and thought that I should be
sufficiently avenged for their disdain if my genius raised
me above them. Dreams and delusions all! My strength has not
equaled my mad ambition. I have remained obscure; I have done
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