French fiction -- Translations into English; Short stories, French -- Translations into English
worse--I have touched success, and allowed it to escape me.
I thought myself great, and I was cast down to the dust; I
imagined that I was almost sublime, and I was condemned to
be ridiculous. Fate took me--me and my audacious dreams--and
crushed me as if I had been a reed! I am a most wretched man!
But I committed my greatest folly when I cast my eyes beyond
that row of lights which marked between me and the rest of
society an invisible line of separation. It is to me a circle
of Popilius. I, an actor, I dared to raise my eyes and fasten
them upon a beautiful woman--upon a woman, young, lovely, and
of high rank; for you are all this, madame, and I know it. The
world accuses you of coldness and of exaggerated piety. I alone
understand you. Your first smile, your first tear, sufficiently
disproved the absurd fable which Chevalier de Bretillac
repeated against you.
“But then what a destiny is yours! What fatality weighs upon
you as upon me, that in the midst of society so brilliant,
which calls itself so enlightened, you should have found only
the heart of a poor actor to do you justice. Nothing will
deprive me of the sad and consoling thought that, had we been
born in the same rank, you would have been mine in spite of
my rivals, in spite of my inferiority. You would have been
compelled to acknowledge that there is in me something greater
than their wealth, and their titles--the power of loving you.
LELIO.”
“This letter,” continued the Marquise, “was of a character very unusual
at the time it was written, and seemed to me, notwithstanding some
passages of theatrical declamation at the beginning, so powerful, so
true, so full of only bold passion, that I was overwhelmed by it. The
pride which still struggled within me faded away. I would have given
all the remaining days I had to live one hour of such love.
“I answered in these words, as nearly as I can remember:
“‘I do not accuse you, Lelio; I accuse destiny. I do not pity you
alone; I pity myself also. Neither pride nor prudence shall make me
deny you the consolation of believing that I have felt a preference
for you. Keep it, for it is the only one I can offer you. I can never
consent to see you.’
“Next day I received a note which I hastily read and threw into the
fire, to prevent Larrieux from seeing it, for he came suddenly upon me
while I was reading it. It read thus:
“‘MADAME--I must see you or I must die. Once--once
only, but for a single hour, if such is your will. Why should
you fear an interview since you trust my honor and my prudence.
Madame, I know who you are; I am well aware of your piety and
of the austerity of your life. I am not fool enough to hope
for anything but a word of compassion, but it must fall from
your own lips. My heart must receive it and bear it away, or my
heart must break.
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