Russian fiction -- Translations into English; Short stories, Russian -- Translations into English
“There was no love in her--that’s what! As far as I’m concerned, that’s
settled, of course--I’m a tyrant! Perhaps she loved you--you who wept
and humbled yourself?”
Father Ignatius gave a hollow laugh.
“There’s love for you! And as a solace for you, what a death she chose!
A cruel, ignominious death. She died in the dust, in the dirt--as a
d-dog who is kicked in the jaw.”
The voice of Father Ignatius sounded low and hoarse:
“I feel ashamed! Ashamed to go out in the street! Ashamed before the
altar! Ashamed before God! Cruel, undeserving daughter! Accurst in thy
grave!”
When Father Ignatius glanced at his wife she was unconscious; she came
to only after several hours. When she regained consciousness her eyes
maintained their silence, and it was impossible to tell whether or not
she remembered what Father Ignatius had said.
That very night--it was a moonlit, calm, warm, deathly still night
in May--Father Ignatius, proceeding on his tiptoes so as not to be
overheard by his wife and the sick-nurse, climbed up the stairs and
entered Vera’s room. The window in the attic had remained closed since
the death of Vera, and the air was dry and warm, with a light odor
of burning that comes from heat generated during the day in the iron
roof. Long unvisited, an atmosphere of lifelessness and forsakenness
permeated the apartment, while the timber of the the walls, and other
objects gave forth a slight odor of active decay. The moonlight
streamed in through the window, and its reflections on the white floor
cast a dim light into the corners of the room, while the white, clean
bed, with two pillows, one large and one small, seemed phantom-like
and aërial. Father Ignatius opened the window, causing a considerable
current of fresh air to pour into the room, smelling of dust, of the
near-by river, and of the blooming linden. An indistinct sound as of
voices in chorus also drifted in occasionally; evidently young people
were rowing and singing.
Resembling a white phantom, Father Ignatius made his way noiselessly,
in bare feet, to the empty bed, bent his knees, and fell face down on
the pillows, embracing them--on that spot where Vera’s face should have
been. Long he lay thus; the song grew louder, then died out; but he
still lay there, while his long black hair spread over his shoulders
and the bed.
The moon had changed its position, and the room grew darker, when
Father Ignatius raised his head and murmured, charging his voice with
the entire strength of his long-suppressed and unconscious love, and
hearkening to his own words, as if it were not he who was listening,
but Vera.
“Vera, my daughter! Do you understand what you are to me, daughter?
Little daughter! My heart, my blood, and my life. Your father--your old
father--is already gray, and also feeble.”
The shoulders of Father Ignatius shook, and the entire burdened figure
became convulsed. Suppressing his agitation, Father Ignatius murmured
tenderly, as to an infant:
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