Sink or swim? : $b a novel; vol. 2/3Houstoun, Mrs. (Matilda Charlotte)
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Sink or swim? : $b a novel; vol. 2/3
Houstoun, Mrs. (Matilda Charlotte)
English fiction -- 19th century
“My poor darling,” John said soothingly, “I know it’s hard. You are such
a child to be told such things, too; so young to learn about such
wickedness. Not that _she_ was wicked; no--no--I’ll not believe it--not
if it was proved before a judge and jury--_I’d_ not believe, Honor, that
_your_ mother--precious--the poor thing who is gone to God so long ago,
was a wicked girl!”
They were quite alone--as solitary under the spreading trees, with the
high bracken sending up its pungent odour beneath their tread, as if
they had been walking between the high banks of the quiet lanes at home.
Half in confusion of mind, and half from a desire to screen his wife
from observation, John had chosen that pathless cut through a
little-frequented portion of the park; and greatly, as in deep pity he
witnessed her uncontrollable emotion, did he congratulate himself on the
precautions he had taken.
Poor little Honor! Poor foolish, ambitious girl! The mystery that she
had so earnestly yearned to fathom was at last cleared up, and she
knew--what one less innocent and unworld-taught than herself might long
since have surmised--that where there is concealment there is almost
certain to be guilt, and that she, alas, was the child of sin and shame!
Very bitter, and yet not _all_ bitter, were the tears she shed. There
was something soothing after all--and in spite of the hard things that
John had said of Colonel Norcott, he _was_ a gentleman and a man of
fashion--there was something soothing in the idea that she was not
utterly relationless, not completely a lone waif, cast on the waters of
life fatherless and forlorn. Her poor young mother, John had given her
to understand, was dead. For _her_ there was no more sorrowing or
shame; in the grave she had found rest from her great griefs, so the
tears that Honor shed for the parent whom she had never known were
pitying rather than regretful ones. On the whole--and in that she did
not greatly differ from the generality of those who are young to
suffering--Honor was selfish in her sorrow. The few minutes which she
had spent, watching in agonised alarm what seemed to her inexperienced
eyes the death-pangs of her father, had awakened in her breast feelings
of the most powerful filial interest and love. It was not unnatural that
so it should have been. Lying there at her feet wan and senseless, the
peculiar elegance of his form and figure made conspicuous by the
unconscious grace of the attitude into which he had fallen, every trace
of ignoble passion removed from the face, which in its calm immobility
looked so very like to death, what wonder was it that Honor’s heart
should have swelled with emotions of tenderness and pity towards the
parent so lately found, and found, perhaps, only that she might, under
circumstances peculiarly painful, mourn his, to her, irreparable loss?
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