Sister Dolorosa, and Posthumous FameAllen, James Lane
Religion
Sister Dolorosa, and Posthumous Fame
Allen, James Lane
Kentucky -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
He beheld her much as a brave, beautiful boy volunteer, who, suddenly
waving a bright, last adieu to gay companions in some gay-streeted town,
from motives of the loftiest heroism, takes his place in the rear of
passing soldiery, marching to misguided death: who, from the rear,
glowing with too impetuous ardour, makes his way from rank to rank ever
towards the front; and who, at last, bearing the heavy arms and wearing
the battle-stained uniform of a veteran, steps forward to the van at
the commander's side, and sets his fresh, pure face undaunted towards
destruction. As he thought of her thus, deeper forces stirred within his
nature than had ever been aroused by any other woman. In comparison
every one that he had known became for the moment commonplace, human
life as he was used to it gross and uninspiring, and his own ideal of
duty a dwarfish mixture of selfishness and luxurious triviality.
Impulsive in his recognition of nobleness of nature wherever he
perceived it, for this devotedness of purpose he began to feel the
emotion which of all that ever visit the human heart is at once the most
humbling, the most uplifting, and the most enthralling--the hero-worship
of a strong man for a fragile woman.
The service began. As it went on he noticed here and there among those
near him such evidences of restlessness as betray in a seated throng
high-wrought expectancy of some pleasure too long deferred. But at last
these were succeeded by a breathless hush, as, from the concealed
organ-loft above, a low, minor prelude was heard, groping and striving
nearer and nearer towards the concealed motive, as a little wave creeps
further and further along a melancholy shore. Suddenly, beautiful and
clear, more tender than love, more sorrowful than death, there floated
out upon the still air of the church the cry of a woman's soul that has
offended, and that, shrinking from every prayer of speech, pours forth
its more intense, inarticulate, and suffering need through the diviner
faculty of song.
At the sound every ear was strained to listen. Hitherto the wont had
been to hear that voice bear aloft the common petition as calmly as the
incense rose past the altar to the roof; but now it quivered over
troubled depths of feeling, it rose freighted with the burden of
self-accusal. Still higher and higher it rose, borne triumphantly upward
by love and aspiration, until the powers of the singer's frame seemed
spending themselves in one superhuman effort of the soul to make its
prayer understood to the divine forgiveness. Then, all at once, at the
highest note, as a bird soaring towards the sun has its wings broken by
a shot from below, it too broke, faltered, and there was a silence. But
only for a moment: another voice, poor and cold, promptly finished the
song; the service ended; the people poured out of the church.
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