Sister Dolorosa, and Posthumous FameAllen, James Lane
Religion
Sister Dolorosa, and Posthumous Fame
Allen, James Lane
Kentucky -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
"Nothing has happened, Mother. I do not know why, but I feel disturbed
and unhappy." This was the only confidence that she had to give.
The Mother Superior passed her hand slowly across the brow, white and
smooth like satin. Then she sat down, and as Sister Dolorosa slipped to
the floor beside her she drew the young head to her lap and folded her
aged hands upon it. What passionate, barren loves haunt the hearts of
women in convents! Between these two there existed a tenderness more
touching than the natural love of mother and child.
"You must not expect to know at all times," she said, with grave
gentleness. "To be troubled without any visible cause is one of the
mysteries of our nature. As you grow older you will understand this
better. We are forced to live in conscious possession of all faculties,
all feelings, whether or not there are outward events to match them.
Therefore you must expect to have anxiety within when your life is
really at peace without; to have moments of despair when no failure
threatens; to have your heart wrung with sympathy when no object of
sorrow is nigh; to be spent with the need of loving when there is no
earthly thing to receive your love. This is part of woman's life, and of
all women, especially those who, like you, must live, not to stifle the
tender, beautiful forces of nature, but to ennoble and unite them into
one divine passion. Do not think, therefore, to escape these hours of
heaviness and pain. No saint ever walked this earth without them.
Perhaps the lesson to be gained is this: that we may feel things before
they happen, so that if they do happen we shall be disciplined to bear
them."
The voice of the Mother Superior had become low and meditative; and,
though resting on the bowed head, her eyes seemed fixed on events long
past. After the silence of a few moments she continued in a brighter
tone--
"But, my child, I know the reason of _your_ unhappiness. I have warned
you that excessive ardour would leave you overwrought and nervous; that
you were being carried too far by your ideals. You live too much in your
sympathies and your imagination. Patience, my little St. Theresa! No
saint was ever made in a day, and it has taken all the centuries of the
Church to produce its martyrs. Only think that your life is but begun;
there will be time enough to accomplish everything. I have been watching,
and I know. This is why I send _you_ to old Martha. I want you to have
the rest, the exercise, the air of the fields. Go again to-morrow, and take
her the ointment. I found it while you were gone to-day. It has been in the
Church for centuries, and you know this bottle came from blessed Loretto in
Italy. It may do her some good. And, for the next few days, less reading
and study."
"Mother!" Sister Dolorosa spoke as though she had not been listening.
"What would become of me if I should ever--if any evil should ever
befall me?"
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