—Schooling and first ideals. —Gets to know everything secretly. —Alone, to prepare himself for anything. (He is incessantly preparing himself for something, although he does not know for what, and—what is strange—he does not care about _the what_, as though perfectly sure that it will come of itself.) —Either slavery or domination. He believes. And that only. Unbelief for the first time—strangely springing up and taking shape only in the monastery. The little lame girl. Katya. Brother Misha. The Stolen Money. Underwent punishment. Fearlessness. A Cornfield. Do not kill me, Uncle. Love of Kulikov. John. Brutilov. The Frenchman Pougot. Upbraids Brutilov. Goes on with his studies. The diver. _Albert._[77] Shibo. Receiving the communion. _Albert_ does not believe in God. The old people. Loves a great many things secretly and keeps them to himself. They call him a brute and thus he behaves like a brute. Passionate desire to surprise all by unexpectedly impertinent tricks? But not from ambition. By himself. The old people. Songs, Therese-Philosophe John, Brin, Brutilov—Brother, _Albert_. Friends, and yet they torture a friend; disgusting. A meek, good and pure friend before whom he blushes. Training himself by hardships and accumulating money. _Humboldt._ Footnote 77: Throughout the MS. Dostoevsky writes this name and Lambert (see below) in Roman characters. They immediately inform him that he is not their brother. He makes friends with Kulikov. The lady doctor. He sees her in a halo. A passionate desire to foul himself, to degrade himself in her eyes, but not to please her. A theft took place. They accuse him, he exculpates himself, but the affair becomes clear. The step-brother committed the theft. Page 7. [Sidenote: A strong and permanent trait.] Disrespect for the people round him, but this is not yet based on reason, but solely on a repulsion for them. Much repulsion. I eat grapes. He is beaten and flogged for his repulsion. He only shuts himself up in himself and hates still more. Haughty contempt for his persecutors, and rapidity of judgment. Extraordinary quickness of judgment signifies a strong passionate individuality. He begins to feel that he ought not to make quick judgments and for this he must strengthen his will. [Sidenote: First signs of expansiveness.] [Sidenote: The mother’s boys are at Sushar’s and at Chermak’s. (Their repulsion comes from stupidity.)] —It is a lie, mon Mushvar. Arkashka and French conversations. Arkashka, Brutilov and himself keep together. At Sushar’s—only Brutilov and his history; altogether two chapters— All up. Because he slapped Sushar. The beginning of _Albert_.