The Inhabitants of the Moon.] It is not this alone that isolates him from everybody, but really his dreams of power and his enormous height above everything. From that height he is kept back by science, poetry, etc., _i.e._ in the sense that these are higher things and that it is therefore necessary that he should be higher and better in them too. Only to prepare oneself, but he is strangely _certain_ that it will all come by itself. Money will solve _all_ questions. _The chief thing._ The meaning of the first part—Hesitation, insatiable desire for the ideal, instinctive consciousness of superiority, power and strength. Looking for a fixed point to rest upon. But at any rate an unusual man. Page 11.[78] Footnote 78: At the top of page 11 is the sentence: “Scenes (cows, tigers, horses, etc.).” or better:—Not a single dream of what to be and what’s his vocation prevented him from amassing money. —But doubt is always solved by the necessity of money and the chance of amassing a fortune (he sells himself to the men-servants). [Sidenote: Concerning a horse that went mad, or a fire.] The father gave him a flogging—a rupture between them—I do not consider you my father. —He sells himself to the men-servants, and for this he is held in general contempt, but —Finds a pocket-book—the infatuation that possessed him finally on account of his exam.—he nearly yields. But after this the history of Katya’s disgrace, and then the hellish debauchery with _Albert_, crime and blasphemy and denouncing himself as accessory to the murder with Kulikov—_straight into the abyss_. The Monastery. —Although money concentrates him terribly on a certain _firm_ point and solves _all_ questions, at times the _point_ wavers (poetry and many other things) and he cannot find a way out. This state of _wavering_ forms the novel. —Strengthening of his will, wounds and burns—feed his pride. He wishes to be ready for anything. —He made up his mind to make money in an honest way. His hesitation with regard to the pocket-book. —Since a great many things at times _move_ him sincerely, in a terrible fit of spite and pride he plunges into debauchery. (_This is the chief thing._) —His estrangement from people was furthered by the fact that they all looked upon him as an eccentric and laughed or feared him. —A broken head (pantalons en haut), he is ill. Then Chermak left him alone. (Mango.) —By the process of thinking he arrived at the conclusion, for instance, that it is not necessary to act _dishonestly_, because acting _honestly_ he would make money even _better_, since to the rich all privileges for any evil are granted even without that. —_Albert_ and he steal a star from the crown and escape successfully (_he_ incited), but when _Albert_ began to blaspheme, he began beating him. And then he declared himself before the court as an atheist.