—Idea: that he could gain a still greater power by flattery, like Von Brin. But no—he thinks—I want to reach the same end without flattery. Page 12. I myself am God, and he makes Katya worship him. (God knows what he does with her. “I shall love you then when you can do everything.”) —In the vagaries of his imagination he has endless dreams, up to the overthrow of God and putting himself in the place of God. (Kulikov had a strong influence.) _Problem._ Memento. To find the mean │Act 1. Early Childhood, the old man and proportional. │ woman. │" 2. The family, Sushar, the running │ away and Kulikov— │" 3. Chermak—exams. │" 4. The Country and Katya, debauchery │ with _Albert_. 20 Childhood. 20 Monastery. 40 Before deportation. 20 Woman and Satan. 40 Heroic Acts. —Repulsion for people from the very first consciousness as a child (through the passion of a proud and domineering nature). Out of contempt: —“I will carry it with a high hand, shan’t degrade myself with the flattery and dexterity of a Brin.” —And this too is from repulsion for people and from contempt for them from the earliest years of childhood— —“Oh, if I only took upon myself the rôle of a flatterer like Brin,—what could I not achieve!” —And begins at times to reason: “Shall I not become a flatterer? (he consults the lame girl about it). This too is a power of the spirit—to _endure oneself as a flatterer_. But no, I do not want it, it is foul—besides I shall have an instrument—money, so that they, willy-nilly, whether they choose or not, will all come to me and bow to me.” With Kulikov he displays his spiritual power. Kulikov does not kill him; but the murderer, the runaway soldier, they killed together. 13 2 27 12 3 5 — 35 years ago born in 1835. If any one overheard his dreams, he believes he would die; but he confesses himself in everything to the lame girl. —Whatever he reads, he tells in a peculiar way of his own to the lame girl. —“A slap in the face is the greatest offence.” With blood.— —The first organized dream of the significance of money. —The lame girl keeps everything _he_ is telling her secret—she does it without thinking, without his command, having subtly realized it for herself, so that in most cases he does not remind her of the necessity of keeping things secret. The lame girl does not agree to become an atheist. He does not beat her for that.