Now the complications had ceased to exist; they threatened her
happiness no more. Indeed, had they been much worse than they were she
would have overlooked them, being altogether convinced of the truth of
the old adage which points out the folly of cutting off one’s nose to
spite one’s face. Whatever his failings or shortcomings, Morris was her
joy, the human being in whose company she delighted; without whom,
indeed, her life would be flat, stale, and unprofitable. The stronger
then was her determination that he should not slip back into his former
courses; those courses which in the end had always brought about
estrangement from herself.
Inventions, the details of which she could not understand, meant, as
she knew well, long days and weeks of solitary brooding; therefore
inventions, and, indeed, all unnecessary work, were in his case to be
discouraged. Such solitary brooding also drew from the mind of Morris a
vague mist of thought about matters esoteric which, to Mary’s belief,
had the properties of a miasma that crept like poison through his
being. She wished for no more star-gazing, no more mysticism, and,
above all, no more memories of the interloping woman who, in his
company, had studied its doubtful and dangerous delights.
Although since the day of Morris’s confession Mary had never even
mentioned the name of Stella to him, she by no means forgot that such a
person once existed. Indeed, carelessly and without seeming to be
anxious on the subject, she informed herself about her down to the last
possible detail; so that within a few months of the death of Miss
Fregelius she knew, as she thought, everything that could be known of
her life at Monksland. Moreover, she saw three different pictures of
her: one a somewhat prim photograph which Mr. Fregelius, her father,
possessed, taken when she was about twenty; another, a coloured drawing
made by Morris—who was rather clever at catching likenesses—of her as
she appeared singing in the chapel on the night when she had drawn the
page-boy, Thomas, from his slumbers; and the third, also a photograph,
taken by some local amateur, of her and Morris standing together on the
beach and engaged evidently in eager discussion.
From these three pictures, and especially from Morris’s sketch, which
showed the spiritual light shining in her eyes, and her face rapt, as
it were, in a very ecstasy of music, Mary was able to fashion with some
certainty the likeness of the living woman. The more she studied this
the more she found it formidable, and the more she understood how it
came about that her husband had fallen into folly. Also, she learned to
understand that there might be greater weight and meaning in his
confession than she had been inclined to allow to it at the time; that,
at any rate, its extravagances ought not to be set down entirely, as
her father-in-law had suggested with such extreme cleverness, to the
vagaries of a mind suffering from sudden shock and alarm.
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