Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
She wondered if he would not ask her some questions regarding herself,
but he did not.
"He does not care to know," she thought sullenly. And then she told
herself that he did know, and a mocking devil of a smile settled on
her lip and was there when he turned toward her again.
But the time never came when his manner altered, when he was less
candid and gentle, or less grateful for the favor she was bestowing
upon him.
She scarcely knew how it was that she first began to know the sound of
his foot upon the stairway and to listen for it. Her earliest
consciousness of it was when once she awakened suddenly out of a dead
sleep at night and found herself sitting upright with her hand upon
her heavily throbbing heart.
"What is it?" she cried in a loud whisper. But she spoke only to
herself and the darkness. She knew what it was and did not lie down
again until the footsteps had reached the top of the last flight and
the door above had opened and closed.
The time arrived when there was scarcely a trifling incident in his
everyday life which escaped her. She saw each sign of his poverty and
physical weakness. He grew paler day by day. There were days when his
step flagged as he went up and down the staircase; some mornings he
did not go out at all. She discovered that each Sunday he went twice
to the little American chapel in the Rue de Berri, and she had seen in
his room a small Protestant Bible.
"You read that?" she asked him when she first saw it.
"Yes."
She leaned forward, her look curious, bewildered, even awed.
"And you believe in--God?"
"Yes."
She resumed her former position, but she did not remove her eyes from
his face, and unconsciously she put her hand up to her swelling
throat.
When at length the sitting was over and she left her chair he was
standing before the easel. He turned to her and spoke hesitantly.
"Will you come and look at it?" he asked.
She went and stood where he bade her, and looked. He watched her
anxiously while she did so. For the first moment there was amazement
in her face, then some mysterious emotion he could not comprehend--a
dull red crept slowly over brow and cheek.
She turned upon him.
"Monsieur!" she cried, passionately. "You mock me! It is a bad
picture."
He fell back a pace, staring at her and suddenly trembling with the
shock.
"A bad picture!" he echoed. "_I_ mock you--_I?_"
"It is my face," she said, pointing to it, "but you have made it what
_I_ am not! It is the face of a good woman--of a woman who might be a
saint! Does not _that_ mock me?"
He turned to it with a troubled, dreamy look.
"It is what I have seen in your face," he said in a soft, absent
voice. "It is a truth to me. It is what _I_ have seen."
"It is what no other has seen," she said. "I tell you it mocks me."
"It need not mock you," he answered. "I could not have painted it if I
had not felt it. It is yourself--yourself."
"Myself?" she said. "Do you think, Monsieur, that the men who have
painted me before would know it?"
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